2024 0117 今日牌卡：倒吊人

今日牌卡：倒吊人 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/131905894 以前老同事說這週他們要吃尾牙，抽大獎 過去我在這家公司工作時，這段時間是黑暗時期 一堆事把我整得昏天暗地黑臉的 聽說，我一離開，那八百擔子的鳥事全都委外了 這 … 擺明了過去是故意修整我得呀 當初人還在江湖上 我常說這麼一句話：今日，是，昨日果，未來因 過去被苛刻、嚴格、過分對待的事 我除了認了，還能怎麼 … 讓霸凌者道歉嗎？ 其實，若有機會，我還真想呀 這又關乎”倒吊人”什麼關係？ 這可是實實打打的直接因果關係呀 過去，我做錯的，我道歉 我想因今日誠懇面對，種善因 債主們，昔日欠你們的，上門討吧 是我的錯，我認，我扛，我還 My ex-ex-ex-colleagues mentioned that they will be having their year-end party this week and there will be a lucky draw. During my time working at this company in the past, it was a dark period for me. Numerous issues left me feeling overwhelmed and with a gloomy face. I heard that after I left, they outsourced all the burdensome tasks. It's clear that in the past, they deliberately reorganized things against me. Back when I was still in the business world, I often said this phrase: "Today is the result of yesterday, and the future is because of today." For the past incidents where I was treated harshly and unfairly, what else could I do but accept it? Can you make the bully apologize? Actually, if given the chance, I really wish for that. How does this relate to the concept of "hanged man"? This is a straightforward cause-and-effect relationship. For the mistakes I made in the past, I apologize. I believe facing them sincerely today is a step towards creating good karma. Creditors, those debts from the past that I owe you, feel free to come and collect. It's my fault, I admit it, and I'll bear the responsibility. #DreamCatcher #Tarot #Tarotreader #Tarotcards #Dream #HangedMan #Alyson #塔羅 #捕夢人 #倒吊人

Alyson’s 3/29 Tarot：信任 Trust

Alyson’s 3/29 Tarot：信任 Trust https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/144834388 問題：想要進行一個計劃，一個自我挑戰和執行的計畫。 跟宇宙詢問可行嗎？ 抽牌：Six of Wands Trust 信任 一位朋友推薦我看一本書『3分鐘未來日記』。 所謂的〝未來日記〞是指用過去式的寫法來寫下這一天的日記，因是這是〝未來〞的日記，所以要在那一天還沒開始任何行動前就寫下來。 所以要在早上進行。 作者說經過她和朋友許多的經驗獲得到的感想就是，日記內容要用正向、正確且優美的文字來敘述，且一邊寫一邊想像。這樣與夢想實現的距離會更加靠近。 這跟我過去常在職場使用的方法很相似。 以前，當我要跟老闆報告前，即使再小的事情，只要攸關”錢”、”人”的事情，都會事先在心裡練習，如何述說，可以讓傾聽者更容易接收與了解我要表達的重點狀況與事情。 在舉辦大型活動前，從筆接觸著紙，劃下第一筆劃開始，從規劃階段就開始想像與演練活動要如何呈現，這樣的安排與設計會呈現什麼樣的情景。 且會在心裡反覆演練若有發生不在計畫內的情況時，該怎麼辦。 因為準備得充分，當真正開始執行時，心中是踏實的，表現出來的情緒也就四平八穩，給人從容不迫的穩重。 作者很厲害，運用這樣好的方式實現她內心裡想要的生活和人生。 我卻很傻地只會用在工作上，導致今日自己還是一事無成，無一是處呀。 我想做不一樣的事情。 我想成為一位獨特的塔羅閱讀師，如同往日對自己承諾要成為與眾不同的人力資源工作者那般興奮與期待。 宇宙透過〝信任Trust〞這張牌傳遞給我鼓勵的訊息。 不怕，我相信你可以做到的。 不怕，你可以相信我都在身旁。 不怕，你的高我，你的靈性，你的智慧知道你需要什麼，相信自己。 那就開始Alyson’s Tarot 新專案。 不用特別挑日子，不用特定選日子。 動念的那一刻，就是最好的開始。 今天，是〝未來日記〞的前言。 給自己一個微笑，一個讚許 ~ Question: I want to undertake a plan, a self-challenge and execution plan. Can I ask the universe if it's feasible? Card Drawn: Six of Wands Trust A friend recommended a book to me, "3-Minute Future Diary". The so-called "future diary" refers to writing the diary for the day in past tense, because it is the "future" diary, so it should be written before any action begins on that day. Therefore, it should be done in the morning. The author says that based on her and her friends' experiences, the diary should be written with positive, correct, and beautiful words, while imagining. This will bring dreams closer to reality. This is very similar to the method I often used in the workplace in the past. Previously, before reporting to my boss, no matter how small the matter, as long as it involved "money" or "people", I would practice in my mind how to express it, making it easier for the listener to understand the key points and situations I wanted to express. Before organizing large events, from the moment the pen touches the paper and the first stroke is made, I start imagining and rehearsing how the event will be presented during the planning stage. I also repeatedly rehearse in my mind what to do if something unexpected happens. Because of thorough preparation, when execution begins, there is a sense of solidity in the mind, and the emotions displayed are steady and calm, giving off an aura of composure. The author is very talented, using such a good method to achieve the life and lifestyle she wants. But I'm silly, only using it for work, which has led to my lack of achievements today. I want to do something different. I want to become a unique tarot reader, just as excited and hopeful as I once promised myself to be a different human resources worker. The universe conveys an encouraging message to me through the card "Trust". Don't be afraid, I believe you can do it. Don't be afraid, you can trust that I am by your side. Don't be afraid, your higher self, your spirituality, your wisdom knows what you need. Trust yourself. So let's start Alyson's Tarot, the new project. No need to choose a special day, no need to pick a specific day. The moment you have the thought, that's the best time to start. Today is the preface of the "Future Diary". Give myself a smile, a commendation~ #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Trust

Alyson’s 5/15 Tarot：改變 Change (47-57)

Alyson’s 5/15 Tarot：改變 Change (47-57) 問題：我5/14的未來日記主題 抽牌：改變 Change 今天與朋友討論的事情與今日的塔羅牌非常吻合 ~ 改變。 一個多月以來，每天持續學習新技能，希望能夠累積更多的學習經驗。 一邊學習，一邊思考，該怎麼做可以持續學習與練習，可以如何運用呢。 與同學討論與交換想法，並請教同學之後她會如何持續練習我們現在所學習的技能。 我們都朝著自己設定的未來前進，這樣的感覺，很是不錯。 前幾日才知道昔日有位同事今已成為理財名人，還有雜誌專訪。 我沒有投資理財的知識與技術，雖然非常羨慕，可終究不是適合我的路。 我沒有投資創業的機遇與財力，真的很是羨慕，可總是得面對現實的路。 可，我知道，我也是許多人羨慕的對象目標。 擁有選擇權，已屬幸運與幸福。 我現在要創造的是未來的平穩和豐盈。 如果我想要協助更多人，那我需要具備更多的能力。 我清楚明瞭，我的這一世，是需要不停動手勞動，動腦勞心的。 學習，是不二法門。 累積學習，多元學習，有效學習，融會學習，聰明學習是我這幾年得多加努力，且戰且實驗且調整的策略。 我首先改變的是執行力。 過往想比做的多，我的塔羅老師，我的前主管，都比我還著急。 他們怕我的大運勢都快已經過去了，我仍還在拖遲，在猶豫。 而我擔憂的是，每日我都距離我的大限更靠近一點，再不加緊腳步，如何完成我這一世的使命，對我的英雄之旅，又該如何論結局。 我也改變了思考邏輯。 我不再問怎麼辦，也不問為什麼。 看到學習機會的資訊，時間允許，就立即報名參加。 時光不為誰停留，機會也是，時機更是。 接著我改變我的筆觸。 從提問句，改變為肯定句。 從主觀詞，改變為客觀詞。 從無病呻吟的調性，希望能夠改變為晴朗輕鬆的陽光類型。 最近這段期間，真的是我這輩子最用功，最認真，最癡迷於學習的時光了。 很忙，很累，很是疲倦。 收穫滿滿。 獲益滿滿。 學習滿滿。 喜悅滿滿。 『改變』 就是要如同變色龍，隨著情勢、季節而不斷改變。 改變，是從內心開始營造，非長髮剪成短髮，原是蘿莉風改為清新脫俗風。 改變，最棒的情境是自然地發生，但有時還是得逼迫一下。 停滯不動，如同蟬寶寶變成蛹，若不想使勁地破繭而出蛻變成蝴蝶，死亡也就成了另一個必然的結局。 在改變之前，我做了以下的事情 ~ 第一、 確定目標，重新導航。 第二、 做功課，瞭解實現目標的選擇種類。 第三、 檢視自己，更加了解自己，並明白欠缺甚麼，也就是要學習補足的事情。 第四、 衡量評估自己當下現況可以擔起哪一項選擇。 第五、 行動，學習。 第六、 通告家人、親人、好友們，生活比重因學習而要調整。 這是我這世最後一次志向與職業大翻盤，需下猛藥，需認真面對。 第七、 享受不足，享受吸收知識的過程，像是飢腸轆轆時吃著一口口的美食，那滿足感和喜悅，讓人感到幸福，開心不已。 第八、 一邊學習，一邊審視現實，擬定及調整學習步調、節奏與方向。 第九、 不斷鼓勵、激勵自己並適時犒賞自己。 學習，除了動力，也要不停添加柴火，維持動能。 該休息時，休息。 該獎勵時，獎勵。 第十、 接受唯有現在才是最需重視與珍惜。 當下該怎麼辦，就怎麼辦，別再問怎麼辦。 Alyson's 5/15 Tarot: Change (47-57) Question: The theme of my future diary for 5/14 Drawn card: Change The topic I discussed with friends today aligns perfectly with today’s tarot card ~ Change. For over a month now, I have been continuously learning new skills daily, hoping to accumulate more learning experience. While learning, I think about how I can sustain my practice and how I can apply what I've learned. I discussed and exchanged ideas with classmates, asking them how they plan to continue practicing the skills we are currently learning. We are all moving towards our self-set futures, and it feels great. A few days ago, I learned that a former colleague has become a financial celebrity and has been featured in a magazine interview. I don’t have the knowledge or skills in investment and finance. Although I am very envious, it is ultimately not the path for me. I lack the opportunities and financial means for investment and entrepreneurship. I am indeed envious, but I must face the reality of my own path. However, I know that I am also an object of envy for many. Having the power of choice is already a blessing and a happiness. What I need to create now is future stability and abundance. If I want to help more people, I need to acquire more abilities. I clearly understand that in this life, I need to continuously work hard and think diligently. Learning is the only way. Accumulating learning, diversified learning, effective learning, integrated learning, and smart learning are strategies I must diligently pursue, experiment with, and adjust in the coming years. The first thing I am changing is my execution. In the past, I thought more than I did. Both my tarot teacher and my former supervisor were more anxious than I was. They worried that my major opportunities were slipping away while I hesitated and delayed. What I worry about is that every day brings me closer to my final deadline. If I don’t pick up the pace, how will I fulfill my life’s mission and complete my hero’s journey? I have also changed my thought process. I no longer ask “What to do?” or “Why?” When I see learning opportunities and if time permits, I immediately sign up. Time doesn’t wait for anyone, nor do opportunities or timing. Next, I changed my writing style. From questioning sentences to affirmative ones. From subjective words to objective words. From a tone of lamentation to a bright and relaxed sunshine type. Recently, this has been the most hardworking, earnest, and obsessive learning period of my life. Very busy, very tired, very exhausted. But filled with abundant harvests, benefits, learning, and joy. “Change” means being like a chameleon, constantly changing with the situation and the seasons. Change starts from within, not merely cutting long hair into short or switching from a cute style to an elegant one. The best change happens naturally, but sometimes it needs to be forced. Stagnation, like a cicada larva turning into a pupa, if it doesn’t strive to break out of its cocoon and transform into a butterfly, death becomes the inevitable outcome. Before making a change, I did the following: 1.Confirmed my goals and re-navigated. 2.Did my homework to understand the options for achieving my goals. 3.Examined myself to understand my deficiencies and what I need to learn to fill those gaps. 4.Assessed what choices I can handle given my current situation. 5.Took action and started learning. 6.Informed family, relatives, and friends that my life balance would need adjusting due to my learning. This is my last major ambition and career overhaul in this life, requiring serious effort and a serious approach. 7.Enjoyed the process of learning, akin to savoring delicious food when hungry, bringing satisfaction and joy, making me feel happy. 8.Continuously reviewed reality while learning, adjusting the pace, rhythm, and direction of my learning. 9.Constantly encouraged and rewarded myself appropriately. Learning requires not only motivation but also the continuous addition of fuel to maintain momentum. Rest when needed, reward when deserved. 10.Accepted that only the present moment is most crucial and should be cherished. Do what needs to be done now without asking what to do. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Change

Alyson’s 4/24 Tarot：愛 Love (27-57)

Alyson’s 4/24 Tarot：愛 Love (27-57) 問題：我4/24的未來日記主題 抽牌：愛 Love 昨晚，又是一個難以入眠的夜晚。 明明，我現在每天很是操勞，過著很耗腦的生活，怎，睡神還是不太喜歡搭理我呢。 今日確實感受到”愛”，且不在預期內的，甚至不是課堂上的同學，是來自於另一個學習課程的班主任。 多日前跟她詢問的事情，今日傍晚她敲來了好消息。 我的需求被尊重，被正視，且回應了我的期望。 「愛」，在人與人之間。 不限於家人。 不限於愛人。 不限於朋友。 愛，越是流動，溫暖熱情的能量越是強勁。 宇宙說，愛，有如粉紅色的玫瑰，是內心的展現。 在愛的世界裡，坦率地接受愛和坦然地付出愛都是很重要的。 愛，也不一定都是張揚的。 有些愛，很溫吞，很緩慢，很細微，需要非常用心地察覺，才能體會。 這樣的流動有點辛苦，且一個不小心，岌岌可危的脆弱關係，就會應聲斷裂，難再挽回。 愛，要說出來，也要行動展現出來。 愛如艷麗綻放的花朵，越是用心植栽，越是回饋一室芬芳。 今天我的『未來日記』與之前抽出的塔羅牌『愛』，以及與今日的事情，很是貼切。 又是『未來日記』、塔羅抽牌與當天事情一致的成功日。 開心！ 分享給大家聖經「十種愛的方法」： 傾聽，不要打斷（Listen without Interrupting.） 「心傲是滅亡的前導，心謙是光榮的前驅。」（箴言 18:12） 說話，不要指責（Speak without Accusing.） 「你們要知道：每人都該敏於聽教，遲於發言，遲於動怒，因為人的憤怒，並不成全天主的正義。」（雅各伯書 1:19） 給予，不要保留（Give without Sparing.） 「貪婪的人，終日貪婪；正義的人，廣施不吝。」（箴言 21:26） 祈禱，不要停止（Pray without Ceasing.） 「為此，自從我們得到了報告那天起，就不斷為你們祈禱，懇求天主使你們對他的旨意有充分的認識，充滿各種屬神的智慧和見識。」（歌羅森書 1:9） 回答，不要爭執（Answer without Arguing.） 「乾餅一張而平安共食，剩餘滿屋佳餚而互相爭吵。」（箴言 17:1） 分享，不要假裝（Share without Pretending.） 「在愛德中持守真理，在各方面長進，而歸於那為元首的基督，本著祂，全身都結構緊湊，藉著各關節的互相輔助，按照各肢體的功用，各盡其職，使身體不斷增長，在愛德中將它建立起來。」（厄弗所書 4:15～16） 享受，不要抱怨（Enjoy without Complaint.） 「你們做一切事，總不可抱怨，也不可爭論，好使你們成為無可指摘和純潔的。」（斐理伯書 2:14） 信任，不要動搖（Trust without wavering.） 「凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。」（格林多前書 13:7） 原諒，不要懲罰（Forgive without Punishing.） 「父啊！寬赦他們吧！因為他們不知道他們做的是什麼？」（路加福音 23:34） 承諾，不要忘記（Promise without Forgetting.） 「希望遲不兌現，令人心神煩惱；願望獲得滿足，像株生命樹。」（箴言 13:12） Alyson's 4/24 Tarot: Love (27-57) Question: The theme of my future diary for 4/24 Card Drawn: Love Last night was another sleepless night. Despite my daily toil and mentally draining life, it seems the Sandman still doesn't favor me. Today, I truly felt "love," unexpectedly, not from classmates in class but from another class's homeroom teacher. Days ago, I asked her about something, and this evening she delivered good news. My needs were respected, acknowledged, and my expectations were met. "Love" exists between people. It's not limited to family. It's not limited to romantic partners. It's not limited to friends. Love flows, and the warmer and more passionate the energy, the stronger it becomes. The universe says love is like a pink rose, an expression of the heart. In the world of love, it's essential to accept and express love candidly. Love isn't always flamboyant. Some love is warm, slow, and subtle, requiring careful attention to perceive. Such flow is a bit arduous, and with one misstep, a fragile relationship can crumble, difficult to mend. Love needs to be spoken and demonstrated. Love, like a beautiful blooming flower, the more effort you put into nurturing it, the more fragrance it gives back. Today, my "future diary," along with the Tarot card "Love" drawn previously, aligns well with what happened today. Another successful day where the diary, Tarot card, and daily events coincide. Happy! Sharing the Ten Commandments of Love from the Bible: Listen without Interrupting. "Pride leads to destruction; humility is the path to honor." (Proverbs 18:12) Speak without Accusing. "You must understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires." (James 1:19-20) Give without Sparing. "The greedy stir up conflict, but those who trust in the Lord will prosper." (Proverbs 28:25) Pray without Ceasing. "Therefore, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives." (Colossians 1:9) Answer without Arguing. "Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting, with strife." (Proverbs 17:1) Share without Pretending. "Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work." (Ephesians 4:15-16) Enjoy without Complaint. "Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, 'children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.' Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky." (Philippians 2:14-15) Trust without Wavering. "And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love." (1 Corinthians 13:13) Forgive without Punishing. "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing." (Luke 23:34) Promise without Forgetting. "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life." (Proverbs 13:12) #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Love

Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot：抱負 Aspriration (22-57)

Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot：抱負 Aspriration (22-57) 問題：我4/19的未來日記主題 抽牌：抱負 Aspriration 經過將近兩週的煎熬與不停的練習，今天，總算沒有上週五的擔憂與恐懼。 有幾次都有跟上了老師教導的節奏，只是需要完全專注，稍微恍神，就糟糕了，整個歪掉的圖面，讓我哭笑不得。 休息時間跟同學聊著天，我說，很開心！今天有比上週進步了。且有些有跟上了。 突然有一個聲音說，聽到妳自己這樣說，我放心不少。替妳開心，這週的妳，進步不少，且都有跟上，也有聽懂了。 沒有注意到老師就在旁邊的我，被這突然的聲音嚇了一大跳。 笑著說，老師，休息時間不要這樣嚇人啊。我的精神只夠用在上課時間的。 這「未來日記」的第三週，主題是『隱士』。 我覺得『隱士』，是在山林間修行，做自己的高人，是率真的人，不太管別人怎麼說，怎麼想，怎麼講，他就做自己，做自己想做的事情，做自己喜歡的事情。 這樣的生活，有著踏實的安全，沒有高低起伏的絢爛與轉折，就是樸實的日子，是種可聽到時間在滴答過去的沉靜，不死寂，如何活動，如何證明活著，都自己決定。 在這樣的時光中，可以看山看雲看天空，聽雨聽水聽鳥叫聲。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/147245104 在這樣低調內斂的主題下，『抱負」要如何連結與貼近呢？ 這是今天的副標題，是權杖的牌卡之一。 『抱負』有一隻象徵向上移動的火炬，這是實現崇高理想和最大潛能的渴望。 就如同我今天想要搞懂和學習現在卡住的課程一樣。 因為內心的渴望，因為內心的好勝心，也因為初衷，想要學習這項技能，所以才會報名這個課程，才會讓自己每天都微笑著迎接新課程內容。 今天，我有成為想要成為的樣子。 今天，我有獲得想要獲得的技巧。 今天，我有活躍想要活著的模樣。 用專注，用意志力，用努力，還有一顆放鬆的心，迎向每一個學習日。 老爸老媽知道這樣的情況，都會笑話我，說，真是反了，年紀大了，才認真學習，不年輕了，才拼命用功。 早個幾十年就這樣努力，今日應可在家躺平悠閒了。 我知道自己『聰穎』，這是對許多人事物的洞悉力，可我不『聰明』，老是學不起來學校教的那些甲乙丙丁戊己更辛。 我知道自己有『智慧』，這是對人有同理心，有耐心，可我不『勤勞』，老是背不起來歷史中誰跟誰打仗，會計科目借貸雙方要如何才能平衡，更不懂微積分要做甚麼用，搞不懂重力加速度對我的生活有什麼幫助。 如今，在我心中有著一些夢想。 有的已發芽，有的還在吸收土壤營養。 這些一項、兩項、三項加起來是我的一大『抱負』，一個大目標、大夢想。 現在學習的課程、知識和技巧，就是為了成就這個有點遙遠的理想及渴望。 加油！ 靠近目標更接近了。 Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot: Aspiration Question: Theme for my journal entry on 4/19 Card drawn: Aspiration After nearly two weeks of struggle and relentless practice, today, finally, I didn't have the worries and fears of last Friday. There were moments when I kept up with the rhythm taught by the teacher, but just a slight distraction could ruin everything, causing the whole pattern to skew, leaving me both laughing and crying. During break time, chatting with classmates, I said, "I'm so happy! I've made progress today compared to last week. And I've managed to keep up with some parts." Suddenly, a voice said, "Hearing you say that puts me at ease. I'm happy for you. You've made significant progress this week, keeping up and even understanding." I hadn't noticed the teacher standing nearby, and this sudden voice startled me. I laughed and said, "Teacher, don't scare me like that during break time. My focus is only for class." The theme for the third week of this 'Future Diary' is "Hermit." To me, the "Hermit" is someone who practices in the mountains, living as their own sage, honest and true to themselves, regardless of what others say, think, or speak. They do what they want and what they love. This kind of life offers a solid sense of security. It's not about highs and lows, but rather simple days, where one can hear the quiet ticking of time passing by. It's not dead silence; it's about deciding for oneself how to move and prove one's existence. In such times, one can watch mountains, clouds, and the sky, listen to rain, water, and bird songs. Under such a discreet and introspective theme, how does "Aspiration" connect and resonate? This is today's subtitle, one of the cards of the wands. "Aspiration" features a torch symbolizing upward movement, the desire to achieve noble ideals and maximum potential. Just like how today I want to understand and learn the current stuck course. Because of inner desire, competitiveness, and the initial intention to learn this skill, I enrolled in this course, smiling every day to embrace the new course content. Today, I've become who I want to be. Today, I've gained the skills I want to gain. Today, I'm active as I want to be. With focus, willpower, effort, and a relaxed heart, I face each day of learning. My parents joke about this situation, saying, "Isn't it backward? Getting serious about learning when you're older, not striving hard when you're young. If only you had worked this hard decades ago, you could be lounging comfortably at home today." I know I'm "perceptive," with insight into many things, but I'm not "smart," always struggling to grasp what schools teach. I know I have "wisdom," empathy, and patience with people, but I'm not "diligent," always failing to memorize historical battles, how to balance debits and credits in accounting, or understanding the purpose of calculus or how gravity affects my life. Now, I have some dreams in my heart. Some have sprouted, while others are still absorbing the nutrients of the soil. These one, two, three goals add up to my "aspiration," a big goal, a big dream. The courses, knowledge, and skills I'm learning now are all aimed at achieving this somewhat distant ideal and desire. Keep going! Getting closer to the goal brings us closer. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Aspriration

2024 0209 除夕日 ~ 今日塔羅：抱負

2024 0209 今日塔羅：抱負 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/137579719 除夕夜，是告別過去舊年，也是情感流動之夜 最近認識了一位妹子 她，40多歲，未婚 她，農曆春節一個人，很多年 她說 她喜歡一個人的自由 然後我想到了 去年，農曆春節，大部分時間我也都是一個人 原本我也以為我很好，那幾天，靜靜得過生活 結果當月月底我就生病了 長達2個多星期 應該，之前的”好”是硬撐著 其實，那時的我，應該不是挺好的 好生佩服這妹子 也許她的樂觀有逞強的成分 但當身邊沒有人可以互相依賴、依靠時 即使脆弱也得裝堅強 生活裡一起分享春花、夏陽、秋風、冬雪的人 不一定只限於親密愛人和家人 可以是淡泊之友、老友、舊友 我的窗玻璃起了一層霧 窗外飄著細雨，不大，就是有點煩人 風吹著是會冷的那種 泡了一壺茶 川燙一盤青菜 碗公裡是昨天沒喝重新溫熱的鮮奶茶 這是怎樣的組合我也搞不懂 隨心所欲的結果罷了 門上貼了春聯 算是給自己添加一些年節喜氣 貼糊得很醜 也挺符合我的style ~ 不講究的生活主義者 守歲了 添歲了 新年新氣象 新春新希望 新年快樂!! On New Year's Eve, it's a night to bid farewell to the old year and also a night of emotional flow. Recently, I met a girl. She, in her forties, unmarried. She spends the Lunar New Year alone, for many years. She said she likes the freedom of being alone. Then I thought Last year, during the Lunar New Year, most of the time I was also alone. I thought I was fine, living quietly those days. But by the end of the month, I fell ill For over two weeks. Perhaps, the previous "fine" was just me pushing through. Actually, I wasn't doing so well back then. I truly admire this girl. Perhaps her optimism has an element of bravado. But when there's no one to rely on, no one to lean on, Even if you're vulnerable, you have to pretend to be strong. People who share the joys of spring, the warmth of summer, the breeze of autumn, and the snow of winter in life. Not limited to intimate lovers and family can be casual friends, old friends, acquaintances. There's a layer of mist on my window. Outside, there's a drizzle, not heavy, just a bit annoying. The wind blowing is the kind that makes you cold. Brewed a pot of tea. Stir-fried a plate of green vegetables. In the bowl is yesterday's reheated milk tea. I don't understand this combination either. Just the result of following my heart. Spring couplets are posted on the door. Adding some festive atmosphere to myself. They're pasted on so clumsily. Quite fitting my style ~ a carefree lifestyle enthusiast Staying up late on New Year's Eve. Added another year old in New Year. New outlook! New spring! New hope! Happy New Year!! #DreamCatcher #Tarot #Tarotreader #Tarotcards #Aspiration #Wands #Dream #Alyson #塔羅 #捕夢人 #權杖 #抱負

Alyson’s 4/09 Tarot：改變 Change (11-57)

Alyson’s 4/09 Tarot：改變 Change (11-57) 問題：我4/08的未來日記主題 抽牌：改變 Change 清晨做了惡夢，不過醒來之後，忘了夢境，只記得那悶在胸口的鬱，那想要大吼的氣。 可，終究我什麼也沒有做。 應該不是成熟穩重的關係。 單純只是明白了，那畢竟只是沒有意義的夢，也就不花費心思去記得。 「死亡」主題下的「改變」，像是我們中文”置之死地而後生”的覺悟。 可能因明天開始就要整天上課，連週末週日也都被學習佔滿了時間，心裡頭早就明白今天是近幾個月最後的悠閒日。 這一天，並非如朋友們常做的把握最後一刻春宵那般的放縱。 我反而將該處理的生活瑣事一件一件的完成。 我今日的思考狀態，工作執行狀況直接反映了今日塔羅牌「改變」，且是從心，從腦袋的思維改變。 今日就像是在為明天開始的新路程做預熱，也像是為過去散漫做個較為完整的結尾。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145941382 改變是為了往前走。 人生的千山萬水， 時代的變化萬遷， 在紅塵翻滾中存在的人們，就是得調整自己。 辦完事情後，回到家，想好好休息一場。 看著地上有著前兩天帶回來一大袋的蔬菜， 今日不處理，明天開始更沒有時間搞這弄那的， 認分吧！ 趕快用好，爭取早點休息。 這心態就與昨日不同啦。 昨日總想著，不是還有明日嗎？ 每一日都是擁有著永遠的明日。 而今天懂了。 雖然都是明日，可意義不同呀。 能任性胡鬧的日子中就已到盡頭。 於是我在今天買了一束香水百合送給了自己。 謝謝過去辛苦的自己。 謝謝現在願意調整改變的自己。 謝謝宇宙、造物主、老天、眾神明還有我可愛的爸媽，讓我有機會可以選擇，可以改變，讓我能夠成為與往昔不一樣的模樣。 攪拌著鍋，收著玩樂的心。 炒鏟著菜，收起散漫的意志。 今晚，得早睡。 今晚，希望能好睡。 明天，是延續今日舊習的新的一天。 明日，是開展新希望新路程的一天。 明兒個，很可能會是一番不適應和雜亂無章的一天。 Alyson's 4/09 Tarot: Change (11-57) Question: My journal theme for 4/08 Card drawn: Change This morning started with a nightmare, though upon waking up, the dream faded, leaving only the heaviness in my chest, the desire to scream held within. Yet, ultimately, I did nothing. It doesn't seem like a mature and stable response. Simply put, I understood that it was just a meaningless dream, not worth dwelling upon. "Change" under the theme of "Death" feels like the realization of the Chinese saying "out of the ashes, a phoenix shall rise". Perhaps because tomorrow marks the beginning of a full day of classes, with even the weekends occupied by studies, I've long understood that today is the last leisurely day in months. It wasn't a day to indulge like my friends often do on their last moments of freedom. Instead, I tackled each household chore one by one. My mindset and productivity today directly reflect the Tarot card "Change," both from the heart and in terms of cognitive shift. Today feels like a warm-up for the new journey starting tomorrow, and also a more complete conclusion to the past laxity. Change is necessary to move forward. In the vast expanse of life's ups and downs, amidst the ever-changing times, those who exist in the hustle and bustle must adapt. After finishing my tasks, returning home, I wanted to rest properly. Seeing the large bag of vegetables brought back a couple of days ago lying on the floor, I realized if I didn't deal with them today, I'd have no time tomorrow. Let's get it done! Quickly use them up and aim for an early rest. This attitude is different from yesterday. Yesterday, I kept thinking, isn't there always tomorrow? Each day holds the promise of eternity. But today, I understood. Even though it's always tomorrow, the significance varies. The days of carefree revelry have come to an end. So today, I bought myself a bouquet of perfumed lilies. Thank you to my past self for enduring all the hardships. Thank you to my present self for being willing to adjust and change. Thank you to the universe, the Creator, the heavens, the divine, and my lovely parents, for giving me the opportunity to choose, to change, allowing me to become a different person than I was in the past. Stirring the pot, taming the playful heart. Stir-frying the vegetables, disciplining the scattered will. Tonight, I must sleep early. Tonight, I hope for a good rest. Tomorrow, it's a new day continuing the old habits from today. Tomorrow, it's a day to embark on new hopes and journeys. #DreamCatcherTarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Change

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57) 問題：我5/24的未來日記主題 抽牌：憤怒 Anger 太棒了！總算來到「未來日記」的最後一天。 長達五十七天的塔羅實驗，近兩個月的時間來到尾聲。 呼！ 不算短的時間。 五十七天，應有五十七篇，最後產出五十篇。 沒有產出的七篇，其中有五篇因身體或時間狀況無法寫出，剩餘二篇，塔羅預先抽出的牌卡與當日沒有事項連結，實在不知要如何下筆，因此就空著。 而產出的五十篇中，有二篇，預先抽出的塔羅牌卡與當天的實際日記無法互相呼應，思索後，決定就不進行記錄，其實應該也是要寫下，這樣實驗的過程和紀錄才能夠完整，可實在是太忙了，忙到每天睡眠不足又太疲憊了。 這次實驗表格的紀錄需要再調整，再精進。 有的時候就是這樣，計畫的時候，不是沒有考慮周全，而是經驗值不夠，所以有需要紀錄的項目沒能去設想到，直到現在要整個資料整理、回顧時，才發現，紀錄不夠完整，不夠詳盡。 有點可惜。 可也無法再多著墨什麼。 對於是實驗主題的最後一天來說，今天的塔羅牌『憤怒』，實在不是一個美好的句點。 轉個彎思考，今天，是一年三百六十五天的其中一天，並不特別，是我迄今歲數近一萬八千天的其中一天，並不稀奇。 不是美好的句點，感覺也就沒有那麼可惜或需要多較真了。 不過，也驗證了今天的很多事情，都是不順利，且現在回想是有一點點情緒產生的。 首先，原本週五課程的老師突然離職，換了一位新老師，是錯愕。 再來，新老師教學內容是我個人已經付費購買的軟體，花了不少錢，現在可以用老師分享的學生權益使用二個月，感覺這兩個月的費用像是被坑了，心情有點不美麗。 學習內容是自己沒有時間，也不會研究的使用方式，有收穫，卻又敗在其他軟體搞不懂的項目裡，好難過，對自己失望了。 請助教老師協助了解一些事情，被打馬虎呼巄過去。對於工作如此不盡心的人，想起前一段時間他說他被以前的學員投訴工作狀態，對照他今日的情況，突然覺得他沒被冤枉。 對這樣的情況，我非他同事或主管，無法評斷也不想臆測，只覺可惜了。 緣分是要俱足。 俱足之前看自己是佈施呢，還是結怨？ 現在栽種的是什麼，日後也就結什麼果。 根據磁石法則來論，以後，只怕會跟他爭論、爭執，進而衍生出爭議的事情，可能會層出不窮。 這做人做事的道理，難言明。 燈不能點亮，話不能說白。 道，貴在自悟，痛在自誤。 想吃的晚餐，今天沒有營業，小難過。 隨意找家燒烤店，簡單點了幾樣，要價竟然是一天的伙食費用，覺得自己真不會持家，挫折不已。 年紀大了，往昔的大怒，大聲責罵，已難再有了。 除了心裡面不想以外，身體狀況也不允許如此高起低跌般的刺激。 頂多就是心口，有點堵，小塞一下。 過了，也就沒事了。 因為知道『憤怒』 ~ 憤怒的情緒就像杯子那般脆弱，稍微大力一碰撞，就裂了，碎了。 憤怒讓自己像是一隻持續噴出火焰的恐龍，眼睛睜紅，感覺血腥、爆力、兇殘，讓人害怕，膽懼。 惹不起，講不得，那躲可以吧，避也可以吧。 像渾身扎滿仙人掌刺，不讓人靠近，久了，也就沒有人想靠近。 如果說，這股火熱的怒氣，能夠試著轉為正面能量，成為激勵心智的動力，那也就不浪費這次被老天安排的”跨坎的試煉”。 只是，有時難免覺得老天好煩，讓人好生地安穩平靜過日子，不可嗎？ 非得要餵食人生毒藥，然後再評估每個人的自癒能力？ 這分數是要幹嘛呢！ 未來？此世？ 來生？下一世？ 搞不懂。 也不想懂。 果然，我今天的狀態真的是『憤怒』。 現在竟然跟老天叫起板來了。 老天啊！別這個自我情緒的宣洩也要搞個評估與計分，未過與補考，然後造成人間慘兮兮。 福兮？禍兮？禍福相攜，可別搞得慘慘兮兮。 Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot: Anger (57-57) Question: The theme of my future diary on 5/24 Card Drawn: Anger Great! Finally, the last day of the "Future Diary" experiment. A fifty-seven-day Tarot experiment, nearly two months, is coming to an end. Whew! Not a short period. In fifty-seven days, there should be fifty-seven entries, but only fifty were completed. Seven entries were not produced: five due to health or time constraints, and two because the Tarot cards drawn didn't connect with the day's events, leaving me unsure how to proceed, so I left them blank. Among the fifty completed entries, two had Tarot cards that didn't correspond to the actual diary, and after some thought, I decided not to record them. Ideally, I should have written them down to make the experiment more comprehensive, but I was too busy, too tired, and sleep-deprived. The record of this experiment needs adjustment and refinement. Sometimes, it's not about not considering everything thoroughly during planning but lacking enough experience. Some items that needed to be recorded were overlooked. Only when organizing and reviewing the data now do I realize the records are incomplete and insufficiently detailed. It's a bit regrettable. But there's no more to add. For the final day of the experiment theme, drawing the Tarot card "Anger" is not a pleasant ending. Turning the corner in my thoughts, today is just one of the three hundred sixty-five days in a year, not particularly special. It's one of the nearly eighteen thousand days of my life so far, not unusual. Since it's not a beautiful ending, it doesn't feel as regrettable or worth fussing over. However, it did confirm that many things today were indeed unsmooth, and in retrospect, some emotions did arise. First, the originally scheduled Friday class teacher suddenly resigned, replaced by a new teacher, which was shocking. Then, the new teacher's course content was about software I had already paid for, costing quite a bit. Now, I can use the teacher-shared student access for two months, making me feel like I got scammed out of those two months' fees, leaving me a bit upset. The learning content involved methods I didn't have the time or ability to research. While there were gains, I also struggled with other software aspects I couldn't understand, feeling disappointed in myself. Asking the teaching assistant for help on some issues, only to be brushed off, made me think of the time he mentioned previous students complaining about his work attitude. Comparing it to his behavior today, I suddenly felt he wasn't wrongly accused. For such situations, since I'm neither his colleague nor superior, I can't judge or speculate, just feel it's a pity. Fate needs to be complete. Before completeness, am I sowing goodwill or resentment? What I plant now will bear fruit in the future. According to the law of attraction, I fear future disputes and conflicts may arise, leading to endless issues. These principles of conduct and work are hard to articulate. The light can't be lit, and words can't be said plainly. The way is to understand it oneself, the pain lies in misunderstanding it. The dinner I wanted wasn't open today, a small disappointment. Randomly chose a barbecue place, ordered a few items, only to find it cost an entire day's meal budget, feeling I can't manage a household, deeply frustrated. With age, the days of great anger and loud scolding are gone. Besides not wanting to in my heart, my health doesn't allow for such highs and lows of stimulation. At most, a slight chest congestion. Once it's over, it's done. Because I know "Anger" ~ Anger is as fragile as a glass; a slight bump shatters it. Anger makes me like a dragon spewing flames, eyes bloodshot, feeling bloody, violent, ferocious, making people fearful and apprehensive. Unapproachable, unspeakable, can only avoid and evade. Like a cactus covered in spikes, preventing closeness, over time, no one wants to approach. If this burning anger can be transformed into positive energy, becoming a motivational force, then it wouldn't waste this "crossing the threshold" trial arranged by heaven. But sometimes, it's hard not to feel heaven is annoying, can't people live a peaceful life? Must we be fed life's poison, then evaluated on each person's healing ability? What's the point of these scores! Future? This life? Next life? The following life? Can't understand. Don't want to understand. Indeed, my state today is "Anger." Now I'm even arguing with heaven. Oh heavens! Don't evaluate and score even this emotional outburst, causing misery in human life. Blessing? Curse? Blessings and curses come hand in hand; don't let it turn into a miserable situation. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Anger

2024 0508 今日塔羅：改變 Change

2024 0508 今日塔羅：改變 Change 現在有一句話說，「變，才是現在永恆的定理。」 跟不上”變”，不想”改變”，不是你唾棄了世界，是世界已走在很前面，遺棄了你。 談”變”還是”改變”，談何容易。 人生在世，有許多珍貴的事物，那些都有著〝不變〞的真理。 真愛，珍愛。 變，就不值錢了。 鑽石、寶石的閃耀與高價在於”不變”。 也許日後變了形，如同人類日漸衰老，英挺帥氣，青春美貌已隨時光漸消失，但本質沒有改變，依然堅如磐石，依然硬如地殼，如同我們愛人的心。 改變，不容易。 論個性，難調。 論品行，難雕。 還好，氣質可靠培養，特質可靠養成。 人生，還有得救，還能有所期待。 最近宇宙一直提醒著改變呢。 我是想這樣慢慢地調整，改變著自己，分享給大家 ~ 第一，語調的正能量。 從疑問句，驚嘆句，現改為肯定句，溫馨提醒句。 怎麼說呢？ 我現在的寫法：「最近宇宙一直提醒著改變呢。」 我以前的寫法：「為什麼最近宇宙一直提醒著改變？」 大部分的用字差不多，用心程度也是相近，你喜歡哪句。 第二，鍛鍊樂觀與平衡的心智。 正事越是讓我崩潰，休息時間我越是快樂哼曲調。 生活日日平靜，無味，只要不涉及危險，有點波浪，這海平面也就生動了起來，海底的生物也醒了過來，生機，就盎然了。 第三，做好正念之四好。 四好，賜好。 老天賜予的好好。 好好吃飯。好好睡覺。好好放鬆。好好愛。 心知足，就能專注。 專注，就能做好事情。 事情做好，人就會好好的。 我近年在努力的，就這幾項，不多，可也不容易。 有很多心得與感悟。 有不少灰心及氣餒。 生活即使簡單，也是充滿了改變。 『改變』，你的愛，進入改變期。 不管是愛自己，還是愛著別人，改變，都是為了更美好的將來。 不用擔心，這改變不是誰變了心。 世界確實一直在改變，且速度越來越快，即使快到很難適應，我們也是不得不接受與學習。 很多時候，改變，是蠻好的事情。 科技的改變，讓事情的處理上更輕易。 與地球那端的距離更加拉近。 不在同一個國度或同一時區的彼此，不再那樣困難聯繫，甚至不用花費任何金錢。 科技，讓有心人，更加靠近。 大發利市的趨勢財與智慧財，誰抓得住誰獲利滿滿。 這已不是過去那個認真、努力就能賺錢的時代。 這是個需要衝，且要敢衝，才能賺到錢的時代。 為了生存，我們需改變。 為了未來，我們需改變。 因為改變，不同的壓力，許多的壓力，接踵而來。 現在已不是像過去那樣地一個簡單的時代。 現在，和諧與均衡更加重視，也更加迫切需要。 身體要能迎頭追趕改變，需要後援，需要調整。 身心要能迎接面對改變，需要支持，需要更新。 我們個人的硬體與軟體皆需要懂得改變，才不造成彼此拖累，互相折騰的窘況，方能處在改變之潮流裡，且不被沖走。 每天改變一點點，一個月的改變加起來至少有三十點。 改變，加上時間這項發酵器，是複利的累積。 而你所能做的，就是改變自己不敢向前的腳步。 踏出舊習，踏入新境，心境因應改變而調整，會發現，前進也沒那麼難。 就是辛苦多了一點。 但，不難。 改變，不需等待，不需擇日，動心起念時就可馬上進行。 Today's Tarot: Change There's a saying, "Change is the eternal truth of the present." If you can't keep up with "change" and don't want to "change," it's not that you're rejecting the world; it's that the world has advanced far ahead, leaving you behind. Talking about "change" or "changing" isn't easy. In life, there are many precious things that hold the truth of "unchanging." True love, cherished love. Once changed, they lose their value. The brilliance and high value of diamonds and gemstones lie in their "unchanging" nature. Perhaps they may change form in the future, like how humans age, losing their youthful beauty, but their essence remains unchanged, as solid as a rock, as unyielding as the Earth's crust, like the hearts of our loved ones. Change isn't easy. Difficult to adjust in terms of personality. Difficult to sculpt in terms of conduct. Fortunately, temperament can be reliably cultivated, and special qualities can be reliably developed. In life, there's still salvation, still something to look forward to. Lately, the universe has been constantly reminding me of change. I think I'll gradually adjust like this, changing myself and sharing it with everyone~ First, maintaining a positive tone. From questions and exclamations to affirmations, gentle reminders. How about this? My current wording: "Lately, the universe has been constantly reminding me of change." My previous wording: "Why has the universe been constantly reminding me of change lately? " The choice of words is similar, and the level of care is about the same. Which do you prefer? Second, cultivating an optimistic and balanced mindset. The more stressed I am with work, the happier I hum during breaks. If life is calm every day and tasteless, as long as it doesn't involve danger, a little wave makes the sea surface come alive, and the creatures at the bottom of the sea awaken, vitality abounds. Third, practicing the Four Goods of mindfulness. The Four Goods, the bestowed goods. The goods bestowed by heaven. Eat well. Sleep well. Relax well. Love well. Contentment leads to focus. Focus leads to doing things well. When things are done well, people will be well. These are the few things I've been striving for in recent years, not many, but not easy either. There are many insights and realizations. There's quite a bit of discouragement and frustration. Even if life is simple, it's still full of change. "Change," your love, is entering a period of change. Whether it's loving yourself or loving someone else, change is for a better future. Don't worry, this change doesn't mean someone's heart has changed. The world is indeed constantly changing, and the pace is getting faster. Even if it's so fast that it's hard to adapt, we still have to accept and learn. Many times, change is a good thing. Technological advancements make tasks easier. The distance from one end of the Earth to the other is getting closer. Being in different countries or time zones no longer makes it difficult to connect, and it doesn't even require spending any money. Technology brings like-minded people closer. In the trend of booming financial and intellectual wealth, it's about who can seize the opportunity and profit the most. It's no longer the era where you could earn money just by being serious and hardworking. This is an era where you need to push forward boldly to make money. For survival, we need to change. For the future, we need to change. Because with change comes different pressures, many pressures, one after another. Nowadays, it's not as simple as it used to be. Now, harmony and balance are more valued and urgently needed. Physically, we need support to keep up with the changes, we need adjustments. Mentally, we need support to face the changes, we need updates. Both our hardware and software need to know how to change so we don't burden each other, so we don't end up in a situation where we're dragging each other down amidst the tide of change, but rather we can flow with it without being swept away. Changing a little bit every day, at least thirty points of change add up in a month. Change, coupled with time as a fermenter, is the accumulation of compound interest. And what you can do is to change the steps you're afraid to take forward. Step out of old habits, step into new territory, adjust your mindset in response to change, and you'll find that moving forward isn't so difficult. It's just a little harder. But not impossible. Change doesn't need to wait, doesn't need to choose a day, just act when the urge arises. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Change

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57) 問題：我4/07的未來日記主題 抽牌：宇宙 Universe 再次驗證了塔羅的神奇。 在10天前計畫將塔羅抽牌與撰寫未來日記兩者結合在一起。 那天晚上呼喊宇宙，請宇宙指引未來四週的每週主題。 接著抽出每個主題各七天的副題。 昨天寫著第二週的主題是「死亡Death」時，我還未發覺。 直到剛剛，看了之前塔羅抽牌紀錄，看到今天的副題是「宇宙Universe」，我的心情再度激動，又想流淚哭泣了。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145838932 今天我們一群朋友去探望一位已遠去的朋友。 在今年的三月中旬我們才知道他已離去許久。 陸陸續續我們討論著要去看他，大家橋著可以一同前往的日期，今日。 我還是像過往一樣，工作的事情與私人的事情，思緒是分開，沒有連結在一起。 其實這是個很難說明清楚的狀態。 明明，兩個面向是共用同一顆腦袋，同一個人的思緒，和在同一個行事曆角逐著各自可以佔有的比例。 對我來說，兩者之間能有機會串連在一起也就只有敲時間，橋行事曆上的空白處而已。 所以，在這稍早之前，我從未注意到今日塔羅的牌卡，與今日的私人行程連在起來。 今天早上，我並沒有時間去想，去寫今日的「未來日記」。 除了急著出門以外，最主要的是我沒有那份心情。 我不敢想像朋友長眠所在的樹葬地方情景，也不知道自己會是怎樣的心情。 我只記得包包裡要多放衛生紙，帶點餅乾、巧克力一起去。 原本計畫搭乘大眾交通工具去，卻在出發前兩天敵不過非常懶惰的自己。 這兩年多來，我把自己寵得是越來越嬌氣。 不想太辛勞的事情，就不勉強自己。 另一位朋友在臉書上寫著想念。 過往的對話，大部分我都想不起來。 我只記得我今天的哥斯大黎加，大嘴鳥莊園手沖咖啡，因另一朋友去詢問老闆關於咖啡的問題，打亂了老闆的節奏，結果我成了苦主，喝到一杯又苦又澀的咖啡。 就像是想到朋友已離開這件事情的心情。 我在自己挖掘的情緒坑洞裡掙扎。 我在樹梢被風吹過的搖晃裡擺盪。 宇宙說，這都是過程。 存在，是還在路上。 曾存在，是已完成。 死亡與再生，在宇宙奧妙平衡裡，分秒持續運動著。 他一人的離去，你幾人的難過，是滄海一粟，是江海一滴。 我的心情低落，是蒼白。 在浩瀚中，根本看不出來。 宇宙說， 有感受，有覺知，是存在與擁有，非失落。 應該要明白，要懂得，因擁有才會感到痛。 花開花落。 潮起潮落。 有機會能說聲”再會”，是很好的告別。 走過人間，終會一別。 不枉相遇相識這一場。 Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot: Universe (10-57) Question: The theme of my future diary for 4/07 Card drawn: Universe Once again, the magic of tarot is validated. Ten days ago, I decided to combine tarot card drawing with writing my future diary. That evening, I called out to the universe, asking it to guide the themes for each week of the next four weeks. I then drew sub-themes for each week, spanning seven days each. Yesterday, as I wrote that the theme for the second week was "Death," I didn't realize its significance. It wasn't until just now, as I reviewed my previous tarot card draws and saw that today's sub-theme is "Universe," that my emotions were once again stirred, and tears threatened to fall. Today, a group of friends and I went to visit a friend who has already departed. It wasn't until mid-March of this year that we learned of his passing. We had been discussing visiting him intermittently, bridging the dates when we could all go together, which happened to be today. As usual, I compartmentalized my thoughts between work and personal matters. It's a difficult state to articulate. Although both aspects share the same mind and calendar, they seem disconnected, with the only opportunity for connection being the occasional overlap in my schedule. Thus, until just earlier, I hadn't noticed the connection between today's tarot card and my personal agenda. This morning, I didn't have the time or the mindset to think about or write today's "future diary." Aside from rushing out the door, I simply wasn't in the right headspace. I dare not imagine the scene at the tree burial site where our friend rests, nor do I know what emotions to expect from myself. All I remember is to pack extra tissues in my bag and bring some biscuits and chocolate along. Originally, I planned to take public transportation, but two days before departure, my overwhelming laziness got the better of me. Over these past couple of years, I've grown increasingly pampered. If it's something I don't feel like exerting effort for, I simply won't force myself. Another friend wrote on Facebook expressing their longing. Most of our past conversations escape my memory. All I can recall is my time in Costa Rica, at the Toucan Rescue Ranch, hand-brewing coffee, while another friend asked the owner coffee-related questions, disrupting the owner's rhythm and resulting in me being served a bitter cup of coffee. It's akin to the feeling of realizing that a friend has departed. I'm struggling within the emotional pits I've dug for myself. I sway amidst the swaying of the treetops in the breeze. The universe says, this is all part of the process. Existence is still on its journey. What once existed is now complete. Death and rebirth, within the mysterious balance of the universe, continue to move forward. The departure of one person, the sorrow of a few, is but a drop in the ocean. My melancholy is insignificant amidst the vastness. The universe says, to feel, to be aware, is to exist and possess, not to lose. One should understand, should comprehend, that pain comes from having had something. Flowers bloom and wither. Tides rise and fall. The chance to say "farewell" is a gracious parting. Having traversed this earthly realm, farewells are inevitable. Our meeting and acquaintance were not in vain. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Universe

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2024 0117 今日牌卡：倒吊人

2024 0117 今日牌卡：倒吊人

Alyson’s 3/29 Tarot：信任 Trust

Alyson’s 3/29 Tarot：信任 Trust

Alyson’s 5/15 Tarot：改變 Change (47-57)

Alyson’s 5/15 Tarot：改變 Change (47-57)

Alyson’s 4/24 Tarot：愛 Love (27-57)

Alyson’s 4/24 Tarot：愛 Love (27-57)

Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot：抱負 Aspriration (22-57)

Alyson’s 4/20 Tarot：抱負 Aspriration (22-57)

2024 0209 除夕日 ~ 今日塔羅：抱負

2024 0209 除夕日 ~ 今日塔羅：抱負

Alyson’s 4/09 Tarot：改變 Change (11-57)

Alyson’s 4/09 Tarot：改變 Change (11-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

Alyson’s 5/25 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (57-57)

2024 0508 今日塔羅：改變 Change

2024 0508 今日塔羅：改變 Change

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)