Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57)

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57) 問題：我4/13的未來日記主題 抽牌：力量 Strength 昨天參加一個培訓課程，關於協談，關於志工，關於自殺議題。 課程內容是嚴肅的，同學是親切的，老師們與主辦單位的人們很是溫柔。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/146682463 上午滿滿的四小時，有數據分析，有現況分享，有醫師專業知識的傳授。 下午滿滿的四小時，是團體課程，有遊戲，有認知，有分享。 上完一天課程結束後，回到家要寫功課，將一天的學習心得與團體體驗一一回饋。 將所有指定作業完成已凌晨。 太累了，沒有精神再提筆寫「未來日記」的塔羅日誌。 今天補上。(然後今天的，卻又得明天補了，希望明天我可以將進度趕上，別再拖延。) 今天「未來日記」的塔羅抽牌是「力量」。 完完全全地貼切著我今日一整天的學習課程。 我報名參加一個志工培訓課程。 這是『1995』是防治自殺專線志工培訓。 經過三階段的學習與評量後，方能成為志工，才能開始進行協助他人的事情。 若問我，那麼多的志工，為何選擇『1995』？ 很難回答這個問題，因沒有仔細酌量與思考過。 二十多年前知道『1995』，覺得這是很有意義的，且真摯佩服這些大愛的志工們。 這些是無名英雄，協助他人，是不留名，不現身的。 一直有想貢獻能力予社會的想法，在朋友號召下，連同我和幾位朋友就一起報名了。 曾有過想哭卻哭不出來的痛嗎？ 曾有過痛到心已麻痺，只覺空洞嗎？ 找不到生命的出口，眼前雖不是黑暗，但確實是看不清楚的。 在迷濛裡，沒有方向，心，虛浮著，恐懼驟升，無法停歇地慌。 可以跟誰說？ 會讓人擔心的。 會被人責罵的。 不安穩的心，煩憂的事情不間斷，何時可安歇？何處可安息？ 生命的幽谷，這路，多長？多窄？多暗？多讓人害怕？ 不經意掉下的小石，打在無處可躲藏的身心上，痛得眼淚逼出，沒人知道傷痕累累又疲乏的靈魂，早已蒼白無力。 如果，因為我短短的陪伴，靜靜的凝聽，電話那頭的陌生人，在這段時間裡放心地坦述，願意再多走一點點的路，我就會感受到值得。 疼惜每個受傷的靈魂，疼惜每個傷痕，疼惜每個痛苦和難過。 不懂，這世上為何就是有人忍心傷害他人？ 不懂，為何有時施暴者是那些受害者最親近，最親密的人？ 在這麼多不懂和問題下，解題或找到答案從來我就不擅長。 但我能”傾聽”，我能”陪伴”，我能”理解”。 我曾踏上山巔，我也曾走在山坡丘陵與小低谷裡。 低谷就已讓我難受與心傷，那些在幽谷小徑中走不出來的人，又是承受多少的傷和痛。 我認為能有幫助別人的機會，是幸運，是緣分。 我覺得能夠擁有能力去幫助別人，是幸福的人。 我想擁有幫助他人的能力並且也擁有幫助別人的機會，這是福氣，這是福報。 我會珍惜這堅守心智的”力量”。 我會守護好想要付出與貢獻的”心力”。 這是我的寶貝，要更加珍惜保護的寶貝。 「力量」這張塔羅牌，在埃及祭祀人員的頭上頂著一個大盤，上面有顆蛋型狀的寶物，這是讓人用生命，用誓言，用心保護守護的。 如同，我想保守住自己堅強的心志，保守住自己內心的信念與期盼。 ”將愛傳下去” ~ 傳給需要的人。 親愛的宇宙，請賜予我溫柔的力量，堅定的力量，希望的力量。 Alyson's 4/14 Tarot: Strength (16-57) Question: My theme for the diary of 4/13 Card Drawn: Strength Yesterday, I attended a training course on negotiation, volunteering, and suicide prevention. The content of the course was serious, the classmates were friendly, and the teachers and organizers were very gentle. The morning session was packed with four hours of data analysis, current situation sharing, and imparting professional knowledge from doctors. The afternoon session, also four hours long, consisted of group activities, cognitive exercises, and sharing. After completing a full day of classes, I returned home to do my homework, diligently reflecting on the day's learning and group experiences. I stayed up until the early hours of the morning to complete all the assigned tasks. I was too exhausted to muster the energy to write the Tarot journal for the "Future Diary" yesterday. Today, I'm catching up. (And then, today's, which will have to be postponed until tomorrow, hoping I can catch up with my progress tomorrow and not procrastinate anymore.) Today's Tarot draw for the "Future Diary" is "Strength," perfectly reflecting my entire day of learning. I signed up for a volunteer training course. It's the "1995" Suicide Prevention Hotline Volunteer Training. After three stages of learning and assessment, one can become a volunteer and start helping others. If you were to ask me why I chose "1995" out of so many volunteer opportunities, it would be difficult to answer because I hadn't carefully considered or thought about it. More than twenty years ago, I learned about "1995" and felt it was meaningful. I truly admire these selfless volunteers. They are unsung heroes who assist others without seeking recognition or fame. I've always had the desire to contribute to society. At the urging of friends, a few of us signed up together. Have you ever experienced pain so intense that you couldn't cry? Have you ever felt so numb to the point of emptiness? Unable to find an exit from life's struggles, although not in darkness, everything seems blurry. Lost and directionless, with a floating heart, fear rises abruptly, and the panic is relentless. Who can you talk to? It would worry them. You'd be blamed. The restless heart, the continuous worry, When will it find peace? Where can it find solace? How long and narrow is the valley of life? How dark and terrifying is it? The small stones that fall inadvertently, hitting the body and mind with nowhere to hide, the pain forces tears out, but no one knows the soul, battered and weary, has long been pale and weak. If, because of my brief company, quiet listening, the stranger on the other end of the phone feels comfortable enough to confide and is willing to walk a little further, I feel it's worthwhile. Caring for every wounded soul, every scar, every pain and sorrow. Why is it that some people can hurt others without remorse? Why is it that sometimes the perpetrators are the ones closest to the victims? Under so many questions and uncertainties, I've never been good at finding solutions or answers. But I can "listen," I can "accompany," I can "understand." I've walked on mountain peaks, I've walked in hills and valleys. The valleys were already painful and heartbreaking for me. How much pain and hurt do those who can't find their way out of the dark paths of the valley endure? I believe having the opportunity to help others is fortunate, it's fate. I feel that having the ability to help others is a blessing. I want to have the ability to help others and also have the opportunity to help others; this is good fortune, this is karma. I will cherish the "Strength" of my perseverance. I will guard the "heart and soul" I want to contribute and give. It's my treasure, a treasure I must cherish and protect even more. The Tarot card "Strength" depicts a large disk resting on the heads of Egyptian priests, with an egg-shaped object on top, something to be protected with life, vows, and heart. Just as I want to preserve my strong determination and safeguard my inner beliefs and hopes. "Pass on the love" ~ Pass it on to those in need. Dear universe, please grant me gentle strength, firm strength, and hopeful strength. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Strength

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養 孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養 孕育 Nurturing (8-57) 問題：我4/05的未來日記主題 抽牌：滋養 孕育 Nurturing 今天早晨自然清醒後的第一個思緒是，今天是幾月幾號？現在是幾點？ 第二個思緒是，我今天到底有什麼事情嗎？ 我的生活早已沒了工作日或休假日的差別。 除非有特地安排事情，只有在寫每日塔羅牌時，會因每日抽到的牌卡不同而需要思考不同主旨的書寫，不然每一天都像是複製日，沒有太大差別。 對於今天的「未來日記」，說真的，我沒有任何的頭緒。 在家的時光，通常沒有特別的事情，要如何用”過去式”去寫今日的日記呢。 可不積極找事情，就會開天窗。 我猶豫不已。 午後，朋友群組裡有朋友說想進行塔羅讀牌。 哇！這是昨晚的心想事成嗎？ https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145655725 昨天晚上我有想到，如果塔羅讀牌可以開張，也許有機會啟動我這方面的事業。 雖然我完全不積極，且也沒有計畫何時開始，如何開始，怎麼開始自己的事業。 過去幾個月，就是嘴巴喊喊，每天抽塔羅牌，閱讀塔羅牌，設計心情紀錄卡，寫讀牌和衍伸的想法。 有時候我們面臨膠著的，不知還能怎麼努力才能打破僵局時，就會盼望著有股外力來個衝擊。 最好是往正向扯過去的拉力，這樣就能啟動磁場開始轉動。 機會滾輪就也開始運轉，好機會就會來降臨。 “滋養/孕育”是很深奧又美好的涵義。 今日”善的種子”種植下去，有些會經過刻意的培育或給予滋養，有些就是自然地不刻意耕耘，我們無法預料哪日會以什麼形式，在哪裡收成。 我總警惕自己別犯錯，別對不住人，別欺負人。 過去在我腦袋空乏的時候，曾被多人鄙棄，瞧不起，認為我是寄生蟲，只會依賴著他們。 其實，我並沒有想太多。 那時的我認為因那些事情我不擅長，也不懂，不要給予過多意見和想法。 有人願意主導，有人負責協助，無法幫忙的人就是跟隨。 我從來未曾預料到一開始說好願意讓我跟隨的話語，只是說說而已。 我的”無意見跟隨”，造成別人的累贅，可那時的我是不知悉的。 我後來知道原來那是客氣的語言，這就又是我不懂的另一個層面。 朋友間，喜不喜歡，要不要，肯不肯，直說無妨，何須繞這麼多彎。 加上那幾年的我沒有心思和心力注意。 讓人不喜歡了，自己都不知道。 唉！何苦如此。 從那以後，這塊友誼田地，我就沒再積極培育和經營。 因為我深深得明白，一片土壤裡滿是玻璃、石頭、碎石和垃圾，是無法培養出好事情。 需要磨合的不是只有愛情，友情不也是需要。 人的心力就只有哪樣多。 人的一生有多綿長？ 這種時候就是要聰明一些，將心力和愛澆灌在會有回饋你的土地上。 就如同農夫，在種植前，會先評估過那片土地是否肥沃，是否合適。 弱水三千，只取一瓢。 要讓你的愛，獨特一點。 偏愛，很可愛。 交付錯了心，那就趕緊停損，止損。 別被不甘心、不甘願給迷惘傷痕累累的靈魂。 寧願自己抱頭痛哭，也不要自我作賤，貶低自己如塵埃。 我們的滋養。 我們的孕育。 我們的心意。 我的的愛情。 只灌溉在兩相奔赴的關係裡。 沒有什麼是無悔。 沒有什麼是無怨。 寫到這裡，可以確定的是與「未來日記」完全離題。 可，與今日塔羅「滋養/孕育」有著直接關係。 回歸正題。 我今日，若有發生美好的事情，那是過去花費心思滋養孕育的因。 我這一世，這種時候可以多些任性，也許是我累積好多世修習，孕育後得來的果。 當我們羨慕時，可想想，自己曾付出過什麼。 當我們埋怨時，也想想，自己可曾付出過什麼。 當我們被羨慕時，再想想，自己曾付出過什麼。 當我們被嫌棄時，需想想，自己可曾付出過什麼。 種植、滋養、孕育，日後方有果。 天生福報多的，有自然給予。 天生福報較少的，那就自己種植，自己耕耘、培育、滋養。 而我今天的「滋養孕育」牌與這週的「改變」主題牌是如何串聯在一起的。 我想，很大的可能性是，我從〝改變〞為基本調去思考”滋養與孕育”。 我太過重情，對於失落、失去，心裡總會有想要強留的勉強，常把自己搞得心糟糟，淚淌不停。 這幾個禮拜我一直持續不斷學習〝道別〞，學習接受道別後的空虛，學習接受道別後，就真的是翻篇與想念。 我也從心裡調整。 道別，讓對方放心啟程離去。 道別，讓自己的心安住安定。 Alyson's 4/06 Tarot: Nurturing Question: My theme for the future diary on 4/05 Card drawn: Nurturing The first thought upon waking naturally this morning was, "What day is it today? What time is it?" The second thought was, "Do I have anything to do today?" My life no longer distinguishes between weekdays and weekends. Unless there are specific arrangements, each day feels like a replica, with little difference. As for today's "future diary," to be honest, I have no clue. Time spent at home usually involves nothing special. How do I write today's diary entry in the past tense without actively seeking activities? Without proactive engagement, one tends to drift. I hesitate. In the afternoon, a friend in a group chat expressed a desire to do tarot readings. Wow! Did my wish from last night come true? Last night, I pondered that if tarot readings could kick off, perhaps there's a chance to kickstart my career in this area. Although I'm not proactive at all and have no plans for when, how, or where to start my own business. For the past few months, it's just been lip service, drawing tarot cards every day, reading tarot cards, designing mood cards, and writing about readings and related ideas. Sometimes when we're stuck and don't know how to break the deadlock, we hope for an external force to make an impact. It's best to pull towards positive forces from the past, so the magnetic field can start to spin. The wheel of opportunity starts turning, and good opportunities come knocking. "Nurturing" is a profound and beautiful concept. Today, planting the seeds of kindness, some will undergo deliberate nurturing or nourishment, while others will naturally flourish without deliberate cultivation. We can't predict when or in what form we will reap the harvest. I always caution myself not to make mistakes, not to wrong others, not to bully others. In times of mental emptiness in the past, I was often ridiculed by many, looked down upon, considered a parasite who only relied on them. In reality, I didn't think much about it. Back then, I thought that because I wasn't good at or didn't understand those things, I shouldn't offer too many opinions or thoughts. Some are willing to lead, some are responsible for assisting, and those who can't help just follow. I never anticipated that the words agreeing to let me follow in the beginning were just talk. My "unopinionated compliance" became a burden to others, but I was unaware at the time. Later, I realized that it was polite language, another aspect I didn't understand. Among friends, whether you like it or not, whether you want to or not, it's okay to speak directly without beating around the bush. And during those years, I didn't have the mental energy or focus to notice. If someone didn't like me, I didn't even know it. Oh, why bother? Since then, I haven't actively nurtured or cultivated this friendship territory. Because I deeply understand that a soil full of glass, stones, gravel, and garbage cannot cultivate anything good. It's not just love that needs adjustment; friendship does too. Human energy is limited. How long is a person's life? At times like these, one must be wise and pour their energy and love into the land that will give back. Just like a farmer, before planting, they evaluate whether the land is fertile and suitable. Of the myriad waters, only a drop is taken. Let your love be unique. Partiality is lovely. If you invest in the wrong heart, quickly cut losses. Don't let a confused soul burden you with reluctance and uncertainty. Better to cry with your head held high than to degrade yourself like dust. Our nurturing. Our cultivation. Our intentions. My love. They're only nourished in mutually committed relationships. There's nothing to regret. There's nothing to resent. Writing to this point, it's clear that it's completely off-topic from the "future diary." But it's directly related to today's tarot card, "Nurturing." Back to the point. If something wonderful happens to me today, it's because of the nurturing and cultivation efforts I've made in the past. In this life, I can afford to be a little more willful at times, perhaps because of the accumulated merits from many lifetimes of cultivation. When we envy, think about what we have sacrificed. When we complain, also think about what we have sacrificed. When we are envied, think again about what we have sacrificed. When we are despised, we need to think about what we have sacrificed. Planting, nurturing, and cultivating lead to fruit in the future. For those naturally blessed, they receive without effort. For those with fewer blessings, they need to plant, cultivate, and nurture themselves. And how does today's "Nurturing" card relate to this week's theme of "Change"? I think there's a high possibility that I've shifted my focus from "Change" to "Nurturing." I'm too emotionally attached, always wanting to cling on to what's lost. This often leaves me feeling miserable, with tears flowing endlessly. For the past few weeks, I've been continuously learning to "say goodbye," to accept the emptiness that comes after farewells, and to truly move on and stop longing. I've also adjusted from the heart. Goodbye, allowing the other person to depart with peace of mind. Goodbye, letting my own heart settle and find peace. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Nurturing

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57) 問題：我4/07的未來日記主題 抽牌：宇宙 Universe 再次驗證了塔羅的神奇。 在10天前計畫將塔羅抽牌與撰寫未來日記兩者結合在一起。 那天晚上呼喊宇宙，請宇宙指引未來四週的每週主題。 接著抽出每個主題各七天的副題。 昨天寫著第二週的主題是「死亡Death」時，我還未發覺。 直到剛剛，看了之前塔羅抽牌紀錄，看到今天的副題是「宇宙Universe」，我的心情再度激動，又想流淚哭泣了。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145838932 今天我們一群朋友去探望一位已遠去的朋友。 在今年的三月中旬我們才知道他已離去許久。 陸陸續續我們討論著要去看他，大家橋著可以一同前往的日期，今日。 我還是像過往一樣，工作的事情與私人的事情，思緒是分開，沒有連結在一起。 其實這是個很難說明清楚的狀態。 明明，兩個面向是共用同一顆腦袋，同一個人的思緒，和在同一個行事曆角逐著各自可以佔有的比例。 對我來說，兩者之間能有機會串連在一起也就只有敲時間，橋行事曆上的空白處而已。 所以，在這稍早之前，我從未注意到今日塔羅的牌卡，與今日的私人行程連在起來。 今天早上，我並沒有時間去想，去寫今日的「未來日記」。 除了急著出門以外，最主要的是我沒有那份心情。 我不敢想像朋友長眠所在的樹葬地方情景，也不知道自己會是怎樣的心情。 我只記得包包裡要多放衛生紙，帶點餅乾、巧克力一起去。 原本計畫搭乘大眾交通工具去，卻在出發前兩天敵不過非常懶惰的自己。 這兩年多來，我把自己寵得是越來越嬌氣。 不想太辛勞的事情，就不勉強自己。 另一位朋友在臉書上寫著想念。 過往的對話，大部分我都想不起來。 我只記得我今天的哥斯大黎加，大嘴鳥莊園手沖咖啡，因另一朋友去詢問老闆關於咖啡的問題，打亂了老闆的節奏，結果我成了苦主，喝到一杯又苦又澀的咖啡。 就像是想到朋友已離開這件事情的心情。 我在自己挖掘的情緒坑洞裡掙扎。 我在樹梢被風吹過的搖晃裡擺盪。 宇宙說，這都是過程。 存在，是還在路上。 曾存在，是已完成。 死亡與再生，在宇宙奧妙平衡裡，分秒持續運動著。 他一人的離去，你幾人的難過，是滄海一粟，是江海一滴。 我的心情低落，是蒼白。 在浩瀚中，根本看不出來。 宇宙說， 有感受，有覺知，是存在與擁有，非失落。 應該要明白，要懂得，因擁有才會感到痛。 花開花落。 潮起潮落。 有機會能說聲”再會”，是很好的告別。 走過人間，終會一別。 不枉相遇相識這一場。 Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot: Universe (10-57) Question: The theme of my future diary for 4/07 Card drawn: Universe Once again, the magic of tarot is validated. Ten days ago, I decided to combine tarot card drawing with writing my future diary. That evening, I called out to the universe, asking it to guide the themes for each week of the next four weeks. I then drew sub-themes for each week, spanning seven days each. Yesterday, as I wrote that the theme for the second week was "Death," I didn't realize its significance. It wasn't until just now, as I reviewed my previous tarot card draws and saw that today's sub-theme is "Universe," that my emotions were once again stirred, and tears threatened to fall. Today, a group of friends and I went to visit a friend who has already departed. It wasn't until mid-March of this year that we learned of his passing. We had been discussing visiting him intermittently, bridging the dates when we could all go together, which happened to be today. As usual, I compartmentalized my thoughts between work and personal matters. It's a difficult state to articulate. Although both aspects share the same mind and calendar, they seem disconnected, with the only opportunity for connection being the occasional overlap in my schedule. Thus, until just earlier, I hadn't noticed the connection between today's tarot card and my personal agenda. This morning, I didn't have the time or the mindset to think about or write today's "future diary." Aside from rushing out the door, I simply wasn't in the right headspace. I dare not imagine the scene at the tree burial site where our friend rests, nor do I know what emotions to expect from myself. All I remember is to pack extra tissues in my bag and bring some biscuits and chocolate along. Originally, I planned to take public transportation, but two days before departure, my overwhelming laziness got the better of me. Over these past couple of years, I've grown increasingly pampered. If it's something I don't feel like exerting effort for, I simply won't force myself. Another friend wrote on Facebook expressing their longing. Most of our past conversations escape my memory. All I can recall is my time in Costa Rica, at the Toucan Rescue Ranch, hand-brewing coffee, while another friend asked the owner coffee-related questions, disrupting the owner's rhythm and resulting in me being served a bitter cup of coffee. It's akin to the feeling of realizing that a friend has departed. I'm struggling within the emotional pits I've dug for myself. I sway amidst the swaying of the treetops in the breeze. The universe says, this is all part of the process. Existence is still on its journey. What once existed is now complete. Death and rebirth, within the mysterious balance of the universe, continue to move forward. The departure of one person, the sorrow of a few, is but a drop in the ocean. My melancholy is insignificant amidst the vastness. The universe says, to feel, to be aware, is to exist and possess, not to lose. One should understand, should comprehend, that pain comes from having had something. Flowers bloom and wither. Tides rise and fall. The chance to say "farewell" is a gracious parting. Having traversed this earthly realm, farewells are inevitable. Our meeting and acquaintance were not in vain. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Universe

2024 0318 今日塔羅：困惑 Confusion

2024 0318 今日塔羅：困惑 Confusion 「DcreamCatcher-Tarot」是我未來塔羅工作室的英文名字。 工作室的中文名字是「捕夢人」。 每個工作天，我會抽兩張塔羅牌閱讀， 運用閱讀牌卡時的直覺力與洞悉能力， 設計當日的塔羅閱讀心靈記錄卡片，同時也將過程描述成文章。 一張塔羅心靈記錄卡，底色為白色： 這張卡片記錄是，向宇宙呼喊，請宇宙傳遞給大家的祝福或提醒。 一張塔羅心靈記錄卡，底色為黑色： 這卡片記錄的是向宇宙提問後，根據抽到的塔羅進行閱讀的記錄。 "DreamCatcher-Tarot" is the English name for my future Tarot studio. The studio's Chinese name is "捕夢人". Every workday, I will draw two Tarot cards for readings, utilizing my intuition and insight while interpreting the cards. I will design Tarot reading soul record cards for the day and describe the process in articles. One Tarot soul record card, with a white background, records calling out to the universe, conveying blessings or reminders to everyone. One Tarot soul record card, with a black background, records the reading based on the Tarot drawn after asking questions to the universe. https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/143696755 矛盾、 理不清楚、 思緒混沌。 到底，什麼為真？什麼為實？ 人生，工作，財富，情感，會只是一場大夢而已嗎？ 生命結束在一抔土。 在已無法土葬的現在，終點在於一瓦罐，置放於一層架。 人生在世數十年，說長，挺短；覺得短時，尤其是痛苦、難過、掙扎，又覺人生漫長。 人世間，很多事情，沒有辦法說對論錯。 是與非，黑與白，怎能是論斷這紅塵一切的標準。 人間清醒。 可也學習難得糊塗。 煩忙之際，用杯咖啡。 透過薄薄的水霧看著桌面，一堆未完成的事情。 眼睛環繞著屋子，已曬乾的衣服還沒摺堆在床上，流理台內有還沒刷洗的鍋碗，冷凍庫裡有一些食物，卻沒心思料理。 日子可以簡單過。 那為何我們還要如此辛苦打拼？ 這幾天有點搞不懂人生到底是什麼？ 認真辛苦工作賺錢，然後花不少錢買天然、無添加的食物，怕吃過多非天然的添加物品。 原本人類是追求進步而成長。 走過了頭，一切都變成假的了之後，在破壞環境之後，如今反過來追求天然，嚮往大自然。 到底，進步這條路，咱們是怎麼走歪的呀？ 有時，迷茫、困惑，也好。 是機會想想，要什麼？ Contradictions, Unclear reasoning, Chaotic thoughts. What is truth? What is real? Is life, work, wealth, emotions, just a big dream? Life ends with a clump of soil. In a time where burial is no longer feasible, the endpoint lies in an urn, placed on a shelf. In the span of several decades in life, it feels long, yet it seems short; especially in moments of pain, sadness, and struggle, life feels long again. In this world, many things cannot be definitively labeled right or wrong. True or false, black or white, how can they be the standards for judging everything in this mundane world? Clear-minded in the world. Yet learning to embrace moments of confusion. In the midst of busyness, a cup of coffee. Looking through the thin mist at the tabletop, a pile of unfinished tasks. Eyes scanning the room, clothes already dry but unstacked on the bed, unwashed dishes in the sink, some food in the freezer but no desire to cook. Days can be lived simply. So why do we still toil so hard? These days, it's a bit hard to understand what life really is. Working hard to earn money, then spending a lot on natural, additive-free food, fearing the consumption of too many unnatural additives. Originally, humans pursued progress and growth. But after going too far, everything became artificial, and now, after damaging the environment, we long for the natural world. How did we veer off track on the path of progress? Sometimes, confusion and perplexity are good. It's an opportunity to ponder, what do we really want? #DreamCatcher #Tarot #Tarotreader #Tarotcards #Confusion #Crystals #Dream #Alyson #塔羅 #捕夢人 #困惑 #水晶 #心智

Alyson’s 4/07 Tarot：死亡 Death (9-57)

Alyson’s 4/07 Tarot：死亡 Death (9-57) 問題：我4/06的未來日記主題 抽牌：死亡 Death 今天的塔羅牌是我未來日記第二週的主題：死亡Death。 死亡，對我來說，很多時候，不是肉身是否存在。 死亡，對我來說，大部分時，是心，是靈魂，是意識是否已不在。 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145751290 曾經，不只一次，我問 ~ 為何，我在這世上？ 為何，我還在這世上？ 既然讓我活著，為何要把我很愛的人都帶走？ 既然讓我活在，為何讓我沒能擁有很愛的人，而對方也很愛我？ 去年認識的朋友說，在相識過程中，他看到我的努力，但認為沒看到我的盡力，即使是面對朋友，我都像是保有大部分的清醒，沒因友情而感到微醺。 我微笑以對。 心，早已支離破碎，已無餘心可盡力。 一次一次被人辜負的重傷。 一次一次家人離去的心傷。 傷痕累累，還有一些心力讓我苟延殘喘的活著。 我休著長假。 不明白的人好生羨慕。 家人好友是心疼呵護。 他們理解，我在試著原諒自己。 他們懂得，我在盡情釋放自己。 他們包容，我在允許任性自己。 他們明白，我在辛苦拼湊自己。 他們體諒，我在努力修復自己。 經歷過類似死亡的心情，很多事情，不再憂鬱。 在死亡的面前，還有什麼，足以為懼。 死神說，別哭泣！ 你們人間看似無常，宇宙運作有法則，只是人們不懂，當然人們也不需太懂。 天災不是禍，是造物主的提醒，是老天的提醒。 人們看似有情，其實是最冷漠，最無情，最自私的。 人，何時能贏過天？勝過天？ 天底下，宇宙間，從來就沒有在論輸贏。 萬物，共生，共存，共好。 這是造物主的呼喚。 可，人，卻老是想要拚勝敗，爭英雄。 宇宙裡的奧秘能量，此消彼長，平衡是秩序。 死亡是自然。 蛻變是自然。 失落是自然。 失去是自然。 釋放是自然。 我在一次又一次愛的呼喚中，清醒。 我在一圈又一圈愛的意識裡，修復。 我在一池又一池愛的池水裡，生息。 我在一個又一個愛的浸潤裡，愛著。 於是，在愛的迴旋中，一邊的愛消弭，另一邊的愛滋長，平衡了。 今日我的「未來日記」，呼應著「死亡」。 今天跟老友們前往秘境探巡。 經歷了看著地圖依然找不到店家的窘境。 看著路邊一畝畝的菜，巧遇主人，一起聊天拔菜。 小吃店裡的辣蘿蔔讓人吃驚，老闆娘說喜歡，送一些給妳們回家吃。 想去行走步道，卻找不到路口，結果，我們早就已在步道上卻不知。 一路與偶遇的人群聊聊天，笑笑鬧鬧。 抬頭看似快要成為下雨天，下山找熱咖啡喝去。 一回頭，憑空出現停車格，迴轉，倒車，入庫，一切順利。 咖啡廳裡的氛圍輕鬆愜意。 一杯咖啡，一個貝果，一客布丁，胃飽心滿足。 又遇店家活動送餅乾，一人一包伴手禮。 我因陌生人的善而開心。 我因朋友的愛而幸福。 我因一切眾緣，善緣而欣喜。 死亡之後，是什麼？ 是改變。 是演進。 是釋放。 是放下。 是重生。 是自由。 是對新的旅程，從心底感到期待的渴望。 而至此，應該明瞭，〝死亡〞與〝希望〞的主體可能是一樣，但卻是一前一後的連續性。 是造物主讓人們的崇高意識生生不息的安排。 Alyson's 4/07 Tarot: Death (9-57) Question: The theme of my future diary on 4/06 Card Drawn: Death Today's tarot card is the theme for the second week of my future diary: Death. Death, for me, often isn't about the physical presence. Death, for me, most of the time, is about whether the heart, the soul, the consciousness are still there. I've asked more than once: Why am I in this world? Why am I still in this world? If you let me live, why take away the people I love? If you let me live, why not let me have the one I love dearly, who loves me back? A friend I met last year said that during our acquaintance, he saw my efforts but felt he didn't see me giving my all. Even in front of friends, I seemed to retain most of my clarity, not even slightly intoxicated by friendship. I smiled in response. The heart had long been shattered, with no remnants left to give. Repeatedly wounded by betrayal. Repeatedly hurt by the departure of family. Scarred, yet with some strength left to cling to life. I'm on an extended break. Those who don't understand envy me. Family and friends are tender and caring. They understand that I'm trying to forgive myself. They know that I'm releasing myself. They accept that I'm allowing myself to be willful. They understand that I'm painstakingly piecing myself together. They empathize with my efforts to heal myself. Having experienced emotions akin to death, many things no longer depress me. In the face of death, what else is there to fear? The Grim Reaper says, "Don't cry! To you humans, things seem capricious, but the universe operates on laws; it's just that people don't understand, and of course, they don't need to understand too much. Natural disasters aren't curses; they're reminders from the Creator, reminders from Heaven. People seem sentimental, but they're actually the most indifferent, the most heartless, the most selfish. When can people win over the heavens? Conquer the heavens? In this world, in the universe, there has never been a debate about winning or losing. All things, coexist, thrive together, for the greater good. This is the call of the Creator. Yet, people always want to fight battles, vie for heroism." The mysterious energy of the universe, ebb and flow, balance is order. Death is natural. Transformation is natural. Loss is natural. Letting go is natural. Release is natural. In the repeated calls of love, I am awake. In the circles of love's consciousness, I am repairing. In the pools of love's water, I am thriving. In the immersion of love, I am loving. Thus, in the whirl of love, as one love diminishes, another flourishes, achieving balance. Today in my "future diary," it echoes "Death." Today, I went with old friends to explore a hidden place. Experienced the embarrassment of still not finding the shop despite looking at the map. Stumbled upon the owner while admiring the vegetables by the roadside, chatting and picking vegetables together. The spicy radish in the snack shop surprised me; the landlady said she liked it and gave us some to take home. Wanted to walk the trail but couldn't find the entrance, turns out we had already been on the trail without realizing it. Chatted and laughed with the people we encountered along the way. Looked like it was about to rain, so we went down the mountain to find hot coffee. Turned around and found a parking space out of nowhere, reversed, parked, everything went smoothly. The atmosphere in the coffee shop was relaxed and cozy. A cup of coffee, a bagel, a serving of pudding, stomach full and heart content. And then encountered a shop promotion giving out cookies, one pack per person. I'm happy because of the kindness of strangers. I'm happy because of the love of friends. I'm joyful because of all the connections, the good karma. What comes after death? It's change. It's evolution. It's release. It's letting go. It's rebirth. It's freedom. It's the eager anticipation from the depths of the heart for a new journey. And by now, it should be clear that "death" and "hope" may share the same essence, but they are sequential, one before the other. It's the arrangement by the Creator to keep people's noble consciousness perpetually alive. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Death

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57) 問題：我4/12的未來日記主題 抽牌：慈悲 Compassion 今天要聊的是「慈悲」這張塔羅牌。 且主題是「死亡」裡的慈悲。 「死亡」這張牌並不是厄運的訊息，也不是大難來臨前的警告。 這張塔羅牌是在說，是時候要將過去老舊的匠氣丟棄掉。 何謂”過去”，想當然爾，就是說不是現在，更不用考量會與未來有關。 已踏上新的路程，選擇新的生活，過去的一些習慣，思維，還有技能，有可能都已成沉痾而不自知，卻還當寶貝珍惜著。 該醒醒囉！！ https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/146479027 「死亡」這張塔羅牌，我覺得還有大刀闊斧的意思，該斷得趕緊斷，該換得趕快換，該捨得的，就別再捨不得。 沒有將累贅放掉，卸掉，要如何前進。 沒有卸掉的，無用的舊包裹，只會拖住前進的腳程。 猶豫，從來就都不是個好態度。 趁早，還有趕上的機會，趕緊醒醒吧！ 我參加了完全不懂，沒接觸過的課程訓練。 每天都很吃力，我樂此不疲。 這是我在經歷我的「死亡」階段。 今天凌晨告知大家今日的集體塔羅牌是「大師」。 那時我是想不通的，現在我是沒有太多機會跟別人接觸的，哪有什麼時候可分享經驗呢。 結果事情的真相很讓我意外，也讓人開心。 原來，今天沒有成為「大師」的我，是那個享受被「大師」指導的學習者。 這是豐盈的果實。 是過往的善意積累的回饋。 這次學習的課程，我一直都很緊張，尤其是今天的電腦平面插畫學習，我一直用不好，老是找不到老師剛剛才講解過的樞紐，且電腦還因我過於急躁猛按滑鼠，直接當機，我原本就已經跟不上腳步了，現在被自己搞成直接休息，只能傻眼瞪著電腦螢幕。 經過觀察和注意，今天，我應是那個班級舉手跟老師求救最多次的學生了。 實在是詢問太多次了，後來我不好意思再請教老師了。 於是，轉過頭，請教坐在後面的同學。 哇！是一個年輕，清秀的男孩子。 前幾天的下課時間，他都是趴在桌上休息，都沒機會看他長的模樣呢。 我用誠懇的眼光請教著。 年輕人走到我位置幫我看電腦螢幕，然後告訴我問題點。 我第一次的電腦插畫，畫得真的是不好看，可是這位年輕人，很親切，很友善，很有愛心。 他很真誠地同意了我所說的，我的畫，真的有點奇怪。 然後鼓勵我，多加練習，會越來越好。 直到今天下課時，我問了後面同學好多次。 甚至在有一點點小小進步時，很開心地趕快轉頭跟他說。 很可愛的年輕人，竟然握起拳頭跟我說，太棒了！做得好！ 然後為我鼓掌，替我開心。 這孩子，真的是很溫柔呀。 我真摯回應說，現在的年輕孩子都像你這樣，說話很懂得鼓勵人，且好正向呀！ 他害羞得微笑了。 今天，我想應該不只是今天，應該說從今天開始，我像是擁有自己的小老師那般有人可以依賴。 今天晚上要喝杯啤酒，讓自己心情放鬆一下，也慶祝這週學習有點進步的成果，還有日後有人可以幫忙的幸福。開心呀！ 宇宙呀！ 塔羅呀！ 不僅知道會發生甚麼事情，甚至連心情要如何轉折都知道。 「未來日記」的塔羅紀錄，我都是晚上要寫當天發生的事情時才去翻看之前插牌記錄的筆記。 關於「未來日記」的當天早上或前一天晚上（若我有記得要先描繪日記想要如何寫的這件事情），這時我都是在腦海裡思考當天的預計行程，但只有寫在行事曆上面的事情才會去事先想像，學習、上課，這類事情，在我的觀念裡是日常，比較不會特別去思考和設想。 昨天發生讓人不愉快的事情，今天也就會有後續事情發展。 放過自己，是當陷入不開心的事情時要先做好的事情。 請記得 ~ 先照顧好自己的需求與情緒，不是自私的行為。 我們得先自己有能力，得有好情緒，好態度和健康的身體，才有機會付出。 否則，反而造成家人和旁人的麻煩及負擔。 今天早上，昨天用粗魯態度對待我的人前來解釋，但並非道歉。 我只說，多提醒的話語是我和朋友間都會做出的關心。 她還想說明，但我不想再聽了。 我沒有忘記昨天她的惡質態度，可也直接表達昨日被她那樣無禮對待後的我，生氣和不舒服。 我沒打算原諒，也沒想要再繼續糾結這事情。 遠離，就好。 我沒有惡面相向，但也不想勉強自己說〝沒關係＂之類的話，反過來安慰對方。 她道歉，是她該做的。 接受與否，是我自己可以選擇的。 有時候，就是有人很討厭的會說，＂對方都道歉了，且是小事，幹嘛還抓著不放？＂ 這真的是奇怪的論點。 ＂道歉＂是萬能的免死金牌嗎？ 道歉，是做錯事情的人要回應給受害者的基本禮貌，但並非道德綁架的工具。 她並非跟我熟識的人，我為何需要承擔她的愚蠢行為和事後解釋呢。 我認為我沒有以其人之道還其人之深，已是我對她的「慈悲」。 且，我也不想委屈自己，因此我認為不接受她的解釋是我對自己的「慈悲」。 Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot: Compassion (15-57) Question: Theme of my journal entry on 4/12 Card drawn: Compassion Today's discussion is centered around the Tarot card "Compassion," within the theme of "Death." The "Death" card doesn't signal doom or warn of impending disaster. It suggests it's time to discard outdated attitudes. By "past," it means not the present, let alone the future. Having embarked on a new journey, choosing a new life, some old habits, thoughts, and skills may have become stagnant, yet still cherished. It's time to wake up! I interpret the "Death" card as a call to make bold changes, to cut ties where needed, to let go of what no longer serves us. Holding onto burdens only hinders progress. Hesitation has never been a good attitude. It's time to wake up while there's still a chance! I enrolled in a completely unfamiliar training course. Every day has been challenging, yet I find joy in it. This is my "death" phase. Early this morning, I shared with everyone that today's collective Tarot card is "Master." At the time, I couldn't grasp its relevance, considering I have limited interaction with others these days. But the truth turned out unexpectedly delightful. Today, I, who didn't become "The Hierophant," found myself enjoying being guided by one. It's a rich harvest, a reward for past kindness. Throughout this course, I've been anxious, especially during today's lesson on computer graphic design. I struggled to follow along, often unable to locate what the instructor just explained. Then, my impatience led to a computer crash. I was already falling behind, and now I was stuck, staring at a blank screen. Observing closely, I realized I was the student who raised their hand the most for help. Eventually, I felt too embarrassed to ask the teacher again. So, I turned to the student behind me. Wow! He was a young, handsome guy. In previous days, he always seemed tired during breaks, and I never really got a good look at him. I asked him earnestly for help. He came over, looked at my screen, and pointed out the issue. My first attempt at computer art wasn't great, but this young man was kind, friendly, and compassionate. He agreed my drawing looked a bit odd but encouraged me to practice more, assuring me I'd improve. By the end of today's class, I had asked the student behind me for help countless times. Even when I made a tiny bit of progress, I eagerly turned to him to share. He was adorable, fist-bumping me, saying, "Great job!" and applauding me, genuinely happy for my improvement. What a gentle soul. I replied sincerely that young people like him nowadays are so good at encouraging others and being positive. He smiled shyly. Today, and perhaps from now on, I feel like I have my own little teacher to rely on. Tonight, I'll have a beer to relax, celebrating the progress I've made this week and the happiness of having someone to help in the future. How joyful! Universe! Tarot! Not only do you know what will happen, but you also predict how emotions will shift. I usually review my Tarot notes in the evening when writing about the day's events for my "Future Diary." In the morning or the night before (if I remember to plan my diary entry), I think about the day's schedule, but I only imagine things already written in my calendar. Learning, attending classes—these are part of my routine, so I don't usually dwell on them. Unpleasant events from yesterday will likely have consequences today. Being kind to oneself is essential when feeling unhappy. Remember—taking care of your needs and emotions isn't selfish. We must be capable, emotionally stable, and healthy ourselves before helping others. Otherwise, we'll only burden our family and others. This morning, the person who treated me rudely yesterday came to explain, not apologize. I simply mentioned that reminders like hers are a form of concern I share with friends. She wanted to explain further, but I didn't want to hear it. I haven't forgotten her disrespectful behavior from yesterday, nor have I concealed my anger and discomfort from being treated that way. I don't intend to forgive or dwell on it further. Moving on is best. I won't pretend it's okay or force myself to comfort her. Apologizing is her obligation. Accepting it is my choice. Sometimes, people might say, "She apologized, and it's a minor issue, why hold onto it?" That's a strange argument. Is an apology a cure-all? Apologizing is basic courtesy from someone who's done wrong, not a tool for moral coercion. She isn't someone I know well, so why should I bear the burden of her foolish behavior and subsequent explanations? I believe not retaliating in kind is my "compassion" toward her. And I don't want to feel resentful, so rejecting her explanation is my "compassion" toward myself. #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYurSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Compassion

我自己2024 0207的塔羅牌是”大祭司”

2024 0207 我自己2024 0207的塔羅牌是”大祭司” 昨晚上最後一堂塔羅課程 對於最近的工作選項 老師說，要探尋自己真正想要的生活是什麼？ 若還是選擇人力資源主管的工作 那是需像大祭司那般任重而道遠，整日因要建立共識，建立默契，而團團轉 時時刻刻充滿著規則、溝通、教化及扮演黑臉 不開心，但有權威印象 若不選擇回歸人資上班族 那就像黑財神那樣，人生充滿各種可能性 時間的積累，最後收穫的未必是財富，但總會有獲得 人生的選擇 很少能知道到底會如何 塔羅讓我了解了選擇一&選擇二會遇到的一些情況是如何 這可做為預先設想及考量的思考評估點 選擇後，心理、情感的承受為何會是更深層未來的決勝關鍵因子 要如何選擇呢？ My tarot card for 2024-02-07 is "The Hierophant." In the final tarot class last night, Regarding recent job options, The teacher said, "Explore what kind of life you truly want." If I still choose to work as a human resources manager, It's like being The Hierophant, with a long and arduous path, spending the whole day establishing consensus, building understanding, and going in circles, Filled with rules, communication, indoctrination, and playing the stern face, Unhappy, but with an impression of authority. If I don't choose to return to the HR office, Then it's like The Dark Magician, life full of various possibilities, Accumulating time, the final harvest may not necessarily be wealth, but there will always be gains. Life's choices Rarely reveal their outcomes. Tarot has helped me understand some of the situations that Option A and Option B may encounter, This can serve as points for preconceived notions and considerations. After choosing, the psychological and emotional endurance will be the deeper key factors for future success. How should one choose? #DreamCatcher #Tarot #Tarotreader #Tarotcards #Hierophant #Dream #Alyson #塔羅 #捕夢人 #大祭司 #教皇

Alyson’s 2/25 Tarot：感知者 Sensor

Alyson’s 2/25 Tarot：感知者 Sensor 昨日是元宵節，在我們這裡這也是個團圓夜。 記得小時候，每到這天，媽媽像是過農曆除夕那般慎重。 因為呀，過了今夜，就不再是新年了，今天是習俗裡農曆新年的最後一天。 媽媽說，貪玩的心思要好好收一收，明天，真的得要努力認真學習和工作。 為了元宵夜，在農曆除夕前早就準備好了湯圓。 最喜歡媽媽手做的大顆鹹湯圓。 以前我家是從揉糯米皮開始製作，過程繁複，且作業日拉長。 元宵節前還要趕往市場買茼蒿，新鮮的豬肉，回來後手工切成細長肉絲條。 起鍋時，我喜歡灑一些白胡椒粉，更是將湯味提升為大人的滋味。 在節日期間，我總是感性高於理性，感受多過感知。 我的感受雷達很是靈敏，過去沒有塔羅的協助時，已可很快速得接收到旁人的情緒狀況，現在有塔羅這工具，我反而小心翼翼的辨別，甚至有時候，會刻意屏除感受到的氛圍。 感覺，總是加雜著很多自己的以為。 說是純粹，有時卻像是自以為是的認為。 感受，比感覺多了當下的直覺情緒。 我甚至認為，直覺是心裡最深層的秘密。 直覺，是反射性的直接反應，無法掩飾，不會說謊的反應。 感知，在我的想法裡，多了理性的思考。 我們於接收後，得過濾，得分辨，得坦討，這些過程都是理性的思維。 最終我們還是想要明白，神秘簾幕後是什麼？ 可，畢竟我只是凡人，會膽怯，害怕，總是懦弱，想逃避。 也會思考，即使知道神秘後面的秘密，又如何？ 生活是持續不停轉的。 我的認知、學習、成長、退化、躲避，是周而復始的循環，唯一不變的是沒有個固定規則可探尋分析。 繼續接收吧！ 感知者，是宇宙給予的天賦與能力。 珍惜。 Yesterday was the Lantern Festival, which is also a reunion night for us. I remember when I was a child, my mother treated this day with the same seriousness as Chinese New Year's Eve. Because after tonight, it's no longer the new year; today is the last day of the lunar new year in customs. My mother used to say, "Put away your playful thoughts; tomorrow, you really have to work hard and study seriously." For the Lantern Festival, we had prepared tangyuan (sweet rice dumplings) well before Chinese New Year's Eve. I especially loved the large savory tangyuan handmade by my mother. We used to start by kneading the glutinous rice dough, a complicated process that stretched out the preparation time. Before the Lantern Festival, we would rush to the market to buy shepherd's purse and fresh pork, then come back and hand-cut them into fine strips. When cooking, I liked to sprinkle some white pepper, elevating the taste of the soup to an adult level. During the festival, I always found myself more sensitive than rational, experiencing emotions more than perceptions. My emotional radar was quite sensitive. Even before I had the assistance of tarot, I could quickly pick up on others' emotional states. Now with tarot as a tool, I'm more cautious in discerning and sometimes even deliberately block out the atmospheres I sense. Feelings often mix with many assumptions of our own. What we claim as pure sometimes turns out to be merely presumptuous. Sensations include more immediate emotional intuitions. I even believe intuition is the deepest secret of the heart. Intuition is a reflexive, unfiltered response that cannot lie. Perception, in my understanding, involves more rational thinking. After receiving input, we need to filter, discern, and be honest. These processes are all part of rational thinking. Ultimately, we still want to understand: what lies behind the mysterious curtain? But, after all, I am only human. I get scared, afraid, often cowardly, wanting to escape. I also ponder, even if I knew the secret behind the mystery, what then? Life continues its ceaseless rotation. My understanding, learning, growth, regression, and avoidance are all part of a recurring cycle. The only constant is that there's no fixed rule to explore and analyze. Keep receiving! Sensor and perception is the gift and ability bestowed upon us by the universe. Cherish it. #DreamCatcher #Tarot #Tarotreader #Tarotcards #Sensor #Wands #Dream #Alyson #塔羅 #捕夢人 #權杖 #感知者 #意念

2024 0209 除夕日 ~ 今日塔羅：抱負

2024 0209 今日塔羅：抱負 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/137579719 除夕夜，是告別過去舊年，也是情感流動之夜 最近認識了一位妹子 她，40多歲，未婚 她，農曆春節一個人，很多年 她說 她喜歡一個人的自由 然後我想到了 去年，農曆春節，大部分時間我也都是一個人 原本我也以為我很好，那幾天，靜靜得過生活 結果當月月底我就生病了 長達2個多星期 應該，之前的”好”是硬撐著 其實，那時的我，應該不是挺好的 好生佩服這妹子 也許她的樂觀有逞強的成分 但當身邊沒有人可以互相依賴、依靠時 即使脆弱也得裝堅強 生活裡一起分享春花、夏陽、秋風、冬雪的人 不一定只限於親密愛人和家人 可以是淡泊之友、老友、舊友 我的窗玻璃起了一層霧 窗外飄著細雨，不大，就是有點煩人 風吹著是會冷的那種 泡了一壺茶 川燙一盤青菜 碗公裡是昨天沒喝重新溫熱的鮮奶茶 這是怎樣的組合我也搞不懂 隨心所欲的結果罷了 門上貼了春聯 算是給自己添加一些年節喜氣 貼糊得很醜 也挺符合我的style ~ 不講究的生活主義者 守歲了 添歲了 新年新氣象 新春新希望 新年快樂!! On New Year's Eve, it's a night to bid farewell to the old year and also a night of emotional flow. Recently, I met a girl. She, in her forties, unmarried. She spends the Lunar New Year alone, for many years. She said she likes the freedom of being alone. Then I thought Last year, during the Lunar New Year, most of the time I was also alone. I thought I was fine, living quietly those days. But by the end of the month, I fell ill For over two weeks. Perhaps, the previous "fine" was just me pushing through. Actually, I wasn't doing so well back then. I truly admire this girl. Perhaps her optimism has an element of bravado. But when there's no one to rely on, no one to lean on, Even if you're vulnerable, you have to pretend to be strong. People who share the joys of spring, the warmth of summer, the breeze of autumn, and the snow of winter in life. Not limited to intimate lovers and family can be casual friends, old friends, acquaintances. There's a layer of mist on my window. Outside, there's a drizzle, not heavy, just a bit annoying. The wind blowing is the kind that makes you cold. Brewed a pot of tea. Stir-fried a plate of green vegetables. In the bowl is yesterday's reheated milk tea. I don't understand this combination either. Just the result of following my heart. Spring couplets are posted on the door. Adding some festive atmosphere to myself. They're pasted on so clumsily. Quite fitting my style ~ a carefree lifestyle enthusiast Staying up late on New Year's Eve. Added another year old in New Year. New outlook! New spring! New hope! Happy New Year!! #DreamCatcher #Tarot #Tarotreader #Tarotcards #Aspiration #Wands #Dream #Alyson #塔羅 #捕夢人 #權杖 #抱負

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress 讓我熱淚盈眶，讓我溫暖力量滿胸膛 讓我謙卑跪下，讓我平靜祥和又安康 焚香，仰頭，靜心，凝視 向您呼喚，不敢高喊 您沉默，您不理 您低眉看似俯瞰紅塵，也許看人們的前世今生 只要您在哪，那兒就是我的家，我歸屬的地方 https://dcalyson0110.pixnet.net/blog/post/145031173 生日快樂！觀世音菩薩 觀世音菩薩的聖誕日，我前往林口竹林山觀音寺幫觀音菩薩慶生，祝賀她的生日。 乾媽 ~ 我是神明的孩子 小時候非常羨慕哥哥和弟弟都有乾媽，我卻沒有。 曾問過媽媽，為何我沒有。 爸媽說，因為我小時候非常愛哭，又愛跟弟弟吵架，沒有大人喜歡我，沒有人想當我的乾爸或乾媽。 我在夜裡哭泣。 我覺得我很棒的呀！ 我太小了，不管是哭泣，或是因太愛哭被媽媽抱在懷裡睡覺的記憶。 羨慕現在的孩子，父母將他們成長，紀錄在相機裡，電腦裡，還有影片裡。 最後，觀世音菩薩成為了我的乾媽。 在我們的文化裡，許多與神明有緣分的孩子，會認神明做乾爸或乾媽。 我們是神明的孩子。 慶生 那天，我比原先預期的晚半個小時起床。 以前長輩和朋友們的睡眠是隨著年齡增長而遞減，我連這點都與眾不同，現在年紀多了，睡眠時間更長了。 沒有睡飽，無法清醒，頭會痛。 所以即使神識有點舒醒，但眼睛張不開，腦子無法運轉時，我就會繼續貪睡一下。 準備了水果，擺放在好看的竹籃裡，到時候就提著進廟裡，直接放在供桌就可以。 記得家裡在這樣的日子，媽媽會事先去買紅龜粿或壽桃這類中式糕點給神明慶生。 我想著自己愛吃的是蛋糕，於是就準備蛋糕。 直覺力 晚起，當天所有的時間都需往後延。 賴床時，腦海中曾閃過一個思緒，非常短暫，快得沒能抓住那訊息。 直到進入蛋糕店，聽著店家跟排在我前面的那位客人說，小型蛋糕已售完的話語，這時，早上沒能抓到的訊息，馬上連結到腦海，並清晰有了畫面與現在眼前發生的場景一樣。 我的直覺力慢慢得回來了，經過我散漫了六、七百天後，感動。 是觀世音菩薩和眾神明的庇佑。 祈禱與祝賀 取了六根香，在廟的右邊側門裡面有點香檯。 高舉點燃的香，然後從右邊側門走出。 走至天空爐前，頂禮，祈禱念詞，三拜。 將三根香插入廟大門正前方的香爐裡。 後退，頂禮，三拜。 從廟的左邊側門進入廟宇裡。 站在中心排，面向前方的神明佛像。 頂禮，祈禱念詞，三拜。 將手上還有的三根香插入前方香爐裡。 後退，雙掌合起，三拜。 從十幾年前，我前來廟宇，除了特別的三次以外，皆無任何的祈求。 第一次是請求指引工作選擇。 第二次是爸爸住院病危通知。 第三次是拜託照護奶奶爸媽。 今日目的是慶生，當然就是祝福生日快樂，然後國家安康。 小幸運，也是小福報 停車位 當我車子快接近廟宇附近的停車場時，前方塞車了。 將車子右轉，打算繞一圈，到後面馬路的停車格。 轉了一圈後，注意到原塞車的路口已無車，那就試試看，也許有比較近的停車位。 過了紅綠燈，馬上，右前方就有個停車格，還是最後一個。 就這樣輕易且順利將車停好。 供品位 進入廟宇，非常多人，供桌上滿滿的供品。 尋思要找空位擺放水果和蛋糕，走到白虎邊的第二排桌子，剛好看到有香客在收他們的供品。 超級幸運的呀！ 請他們慢慢來，我可以等一下時間的，沒關係的。 在這樣神聖的日子，許多人都面帶微笑與欣喜心前來。 我的竹籃和蛋糕盒，都是方型且盒子狀，可以疊起來擺放。 在這樣隆重日子，神明不會跟信徒、香客計較東西擺放是否有端正。 結緣品 第一次注意廟裡的活動情況，以前總是只有拜拜，沒有留意其他。 廟宇中間，出家師父們帶領信眾唱誦佛經。 正想往那裏靠近，突然聽到物品撒落的聲音，我趕緊前往協助撿拾。 以為是某信眾的供品，撿起來後才知道是中間師父們丟出來要送給有緣粉的信眾們的糖果。 我很幸運，撿到了兩顆。 在我不懂的情況下，不同的糖果繼續發送。 站在第一線的一位姐姐，突然轉身，將她手指攤開說，歡迎結緣，分享她掌中的糖果。 我拿了她的糖果，並用我撿到的另一種，送給這位姐姐，祝福她。 糖果繼續分送著。 我覺我有拿到兩種，已是非常幸運的事情，不須每一種都要拿到，更不須要拿到很多。 有好多人受到觀世音菩薩的協助，發送著還願品，跟大眾結善緣。 還有大悲咒水，經過觀世音菩薩的加持，回家加入飲用水，從身體內部，每一細胞都有著佛經的保護。 祈禱位 觀音菩薩聖誕日，廟宇的委員會請了師父前來唱誦佛經。 關於佛經，對我們來說很有距離，裡頭全是看不懂的梵文意思。 就如同基督教有讀聖經班，佛經也有讀經班，讓想要了解的人有機會可以研讀。 外圍發放著糖果餅乾，中間的唱誦佛經持續著，我站在一旁跟著頂禮，膜拜。 隨著師父唱誦的聲調，我的身體很輕鬆得輕微舞動。 那是讓我很沉浸的音律。 看到一位長輩也想頂禮膜拜，我側了身，讓她可以更為靠近一些。 我想，這也是一種志同道合吧。 在這樣近的距離，我與觀世音菩薩金身在同一個小空間裡，隨著唱誦聲音的流淌，我的心思只有佛經，只有當下。我的心中，溫柔燦燦。 回家 ~ 溫暖的溫柔 儀式告一段落。 觀世音菩薩的金身需要回到大殿之中。 這是第一次看到竹林山觀音寺觀世音菩薩的金身。 小小的，黑黑的，應是被長年鼎盛香火燻的。 原本想拿起手機拍攝或錄影。 在發現菩薩金身應該會經過身邊時，我一心只想好好看看菩薩，只想感受當下。 菩薩金身被人抱著朝我邊前進，我用右手跟觀音菩薩金身打招呼，輕聲對她說，『觀音菩薩，生日快樂。』 在菩薩金身從我眼前經過時，我瞬間熱淚盈眶，站在原地久久無法移身。 像是被光溫暖包裹著，擁抱著。 我像是被乾媽抱在懷中，她溫柔的撫慰我。 我在心中對觀世音菩薩說，我回來了。乾媽。 咖啡味 竹林寺大門旁的停車場邊邊開了一家小小咖啡廳。 一位年輕男孩的創業，裡面位置不多，也沒有洗手間。 我喜歡這地方的可愛，和老闆的親切。 詢問了併桌，獲得對方親和的回應。 老闆還記得我，我們聊了農曆春節他與廟宇如此近的距離，他的所見，所聞，所感，所想。 有時我們都需要像是朋友，可互相聊聊的人。 不熟悉但認識，這樣的淡淡，很好。 後記 離開了廟宇，將蛋糕分享給哥哥嫂嫂，分享給社區守衛和打掃大姊。 吃觀世音菩薩加持過的蛋糕，大家都平安，都沾染到溫暖的光。 回到自己的家中，想將慶生寫下紀錄，也想知道當觀世音菩薩經過我身旁時，她跟我說了什麼，讓我的高靈感動到情緒無法控制，即使過了一些時間，跟哥哥分享時，依然是想流淚，依然馬上紅眼眶。 塔羅抽到了『皇后Empress』。 我又哭了。 是媽媽。 張開雙手，等著我撲上前，抱著我。 是媽媽。 滋養孕育，等著我撲上前，餵飽我。 是媽媽。 溫暖守候，等著我撲上前，撫慰我。 是媽媽。 安慰支持，等著我撲上前，誇獎我。 是媽媽。 林口竹林山觀音寺： https://www.zlskyt.com.tw/ 紅龜粿： https://zh.wikipedia.org/zh-tw/%E7%B4%85%E9%BE%9C%E7%B2%BF 壽桃： https://www.klintainan.com/Goods/92 Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot: Empress Let my eyes brim with tears, let warm strength fill my chest, Let me kneel in humility, let me be serene, peaceful, and healthy, Burning incense, looking up, quieting my mind, gazing, Calling out to you, not daring to shout, You remain silent, you don't respond, With lowered brows, seemingly overlooking the mortal world, perhaps seeing people's past lives and present, As long as you are there, that's my home, the place I belong. Happy Birthday! Guanyin Bodhisattva On the birthday of Guanyin Bodhisattva, I went to the Guanyin Temple in Linkou Zhulin Mountain to celebrate her birthday and offer my congratulations. Godmother ~ I Am a Child of the Deities When I was young, I envied my brothers for having godmothers while I didn't. I once asked my mother why. My parents said it was because I used to cry a lot and argue with my younger brother, and no adults liked me or wanted to be my godparents. I cried myself to sleep at night. I thought I was great! I was too young to remember whether it was crying or being cuddled to sleep by my mother because I cried too much. I envied today's children, whose parents record their growth in cameras, computers, and videos. Finally, Guanyin Bodhisattva became my godmother. In our culture, many children who are destined to have connections with deities recognize them as godparents. We are children of the deities. Celebration That day, I woke up half an hour later than I originally planned. In the past, the sleep of elders and friends decreased with age, but I was different. As I grew older, I slept longer. Without enough sleep, I couldn't stay awake, and my head would ache. So even if my consciousness was somewhat awake, if I couldn't open my eyes or my brain couldn't function, I would continue to indulge in sleep. I prepared fruits and arranged them in a beautiful bamboo basket to take them into the temple and place them directly on the altar when the time came. I remember that on such days, my mother would buy traditional Chinese pastries like red turtle cakes or longevity peaches to celebrate the deities' birthdays. Since I loved cakes, I decided to prepare a cake. Intuition Waking up late meant that everything for the day would be delayed. While lying in bed, a fleeting thought crossed my mind, so brief that I couldn't grasp the message. It wasn't until I entered the cake shop and heard the shopkeeper telling the customer in front of me that the small cakes were sold out that the morning's missed message instantly connected in my mind, vividly matching the scene happening before me. My intuition was slowly returning, which moved me after my absent-mindedness for six or seven hundred days. It was the blessing of Guanyin Bodhisattva and the other deities. Prayer and Blessing I took six incense sticks. Inside the temple's right side door was an incense table. I raised the lit incense and walked out from the right side door. I walked to the sky furnace, paid respects, recited prayers, and bowed three times. Then, I inserted three incense sticks into the incense burner directly in front of the temple door. I stepped back, paid respects, and bowed three times. I entered the temple from the left side door. Standing in the center row facing the deity's statue in front, I paid respects, recited prayers, and bowed three times. Then, I inserted the remaining three incense sticks into the incense burner in front. I stepped back, clasped my hands together, and bowed three times. Since ten years ago, when I came to the temple, except for three special occasions, I had no requests during my visits. The first time was to seek guidance on job choices. The second time was when my father was hospitalized and critically ill. The third time was to ask for care for my grandparents. Today's purpose was to celebrate, of course, to wish for a happy birthday and the well-being of the country. Small Fortunes, Small Blessings Parking Space As my car approached the temple's parking lot, there was traffic ahead. I turned right, planning to go around and park in the parking spaces on the street behind. After making a circle, I noticed that the intersection where there was traffic before was now clear. So, I decided to try my luck and see if there was a closer parking space. After passing the traffic light, there was immediately a parking space on the right side, and it was the last one. So, I easily and smoothly parked my car. Offerings Entering the temple, there were many people, and the offering tables were full. I wondered where to find space to place the fruits and cake. I walked to the second row of tables on the side of the White Tiger and happened to see worshippers collecting their offerings. Super lucky! I asked them to take their time as I could wait. On such a sacred day, many people came with smiles and joy. My bamboo basket and cake box were both square and box-shaped, so they could be stacked and placed. On such an important day, the deities wouldn't mind how neatly offerings were placed by the worshippers and visitors. Bonds It was the first time I paid attention to the activities in the temple. Before, I only prayed without paying attention to anything else. In the middle of the temple, the ordained masters led the worshippers in chanting sutras. Just as I was about to approach them, I suddenly heard the sound of items being scattered. I hurried over to help pick them up, thinking they were offerings from worshippers. Only after picking them up did I realize they were candies thrown by the masters in the middle to be given to worshippers who were destined to receive them. I was very lucky to pick up two. Without understanding why, different candies continued to be distributed. A sister standing in the front suddenly turned around, opened her hand, and welcomed me to share the candies in her palm. I took her candy and gave her the other one I picked up, wishing her well. The candies continued to be distributed. I felt lucky to have picked up two kinds, which was already a very fortunate thing. There was no need to have every kind or to have many. Many people received help from Guanyin Bodhisattva, offering their gratitude and forming good karma with others. There was also the water blessed with the Great Compassion Mantra, which, when consumed at home, protected every cell of the body with the sutras. Prayer Space On the birthday of Guanyin Bodhisattva, the temple committee invited masters to chant sutras. The sutras were distant to us, filled with Sanskrit meanings we couldn't understand. Just as Christianity has Bible study classes, there are also sutra study classes for those who wish to understand. Candies and cookies were distributed on the periphery, while the chanting of sutras continued in the middle. I stood aside, paying respects and worshiping along. With the tones of the master's chanting, my body relaxed slightly, swaying gently. It was a melody that immersed me deeply. Seeing an elder wanting to pay respects, I stepped aside to let her get closer. I thought, this is also a kind of mutual understanding. At such a close distance, I and the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva were in the same small space. Flowing with the chanting, my mind was filled only with the sutras, only with the present moment. My heart was warm and radiant. Going Home ~ Warm Gentleness The ceremony came to a close. The golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva needed to return to the main hall. It was the first time I had seen the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva at the Zhulin Mountain Guanyin Temple. It was small and dark, likely imbued with the incense smoke of many years. I had initially thought of taking out my phone to capture or record it. However, when I realized that the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva would pass by me, I focused solely on observing her, just wanting to feel the present moment. As the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva was carried towards me, I greeted her with my right hand and softly said, "Guanyin Bodhisattva, happy birthday." As the golden statue of Guanyin Bodhisattva passed by me, tears welled up in my eyes instantly, and I stood there unable to move for a long time. It felt like being enveloped in warm light, embraced. It was as if I were being hugged by my godmother, her gentle comfort soothing me. In my heart, I said to Guanyin Bodhisattva, "I'm back, godmother." Coffee Flavor Next to the parking lot by the gate of the Zhulin Temple, there was a small coffee shop. It was started by a young man, with limited seating and no restroom. I liked the quaintness of this place and the friendliness of the owner. I asked to share a table and received a friendly response. The owner remembered me, and we talked about the proximity of the Lunar New Year to the temple, sharing perspectives and experiences. Sometimes, we all need someone to chat with, even if we're not familiar but acquainted. Such light connections are nice. Afterthought Leaving the temple, I shared the cake with my brother, sister-in-law, community guards, and the cleaning lady. Eating the cake blessed by Guanyin Bodhisattva, everyone was safe and bathed in warm light. Back at home, I wanted to write down the celebration and also find out what Guanyin Bodhisattva said to me as she passed by, which moved me to uncontrollable emotions. Even after some time had passed, I still felt like crying when I shared it with my brother, with tears in my eyes. I drew the Tarot card "Empress" again. And I cried. It was my mother. With open arms, waiting for me to rush into them, embracing me. It was my mother. Nurturing and feeding me, waiting for me to come to her. It was my mother. Warmly waiting, ready to comfort me when I rush to her. It was my mother. Offering solace and support, waiting for me to approach, ready to praise me. It was my mother. Zhulin Mountain Guanyin Temple: https://www.zlskyt.com.tw/ Red Turtle Cakes: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_tortoise_cake Longevity Peaches: https://www.klintainan.com/Goods/92 #DreamCatcherTarot #Tarot #DCTarotreader #Tarotcards #BeYuSelfBOSS #BlessedDream #Alyson #Empress

and-then-s...搜尋結果

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57)

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

2024 0318 今日塔羅：困惑 Confusion

2024 0318 今日塔羅：困惑 Confusion

Alyson’s 4/07 Tarot：死亡 Death (9-57)

Alyson’s 4/07 Tarot：死亡 Death (9-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

我自己2024 0207的塔羅牌是”大祭司”

我自己2024 0207的塔羅牌是”大祭司”

Alyson’s 2/25 Tarot：感知者 Sensor

Alyson’s 2/25 Tarot：感知者 Sensor

2024 0209 除夕日 ~ 今日塔羅：抱負

2024 0209 除夕日 ~ 今日塔羅：抱負

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

and-then-s...搜尋結果

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57)

Alyson’s 4/14 Tarot：力量 Strength (16-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養 孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養 孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

Alyson’s 4/08 Tarot：宇宙 Universe (10-57)

2024 0318 今日塔羅：困惑 Confusion

2024 0318 今日塔羅：困惑 Confusion

Alyson’s 4/07 Tarot：死亡 Death (9-57)

Alyson’s 4/07 Tarot：死亡 Death (9-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

Alyson’s 4/13 Tarot：慈悲 Compassion (15-57)

我自己2024 0207的塔羅牌是”大祭司”

我自己2024 0207的塔羅牌是”大祭司”

Alyson’s 2/25 Tarot：感知者 Sensor

Alyson’s 2/25 Tarot：感知者 Sensor

2024 0209 除夕日 ~ 今日塔羅：抱負

2024 0209 除夕日 ~ 今日塔羅：抱負

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

Alyson’s 3/31 Tarot：皇后 Empress

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養孕育 Nurturing (8-57)

Alyson’s 4/06 Tarot：滋養孕育 Nurturing (8-57)