Alyson’s 2/14 Tarot：幻覺
Alyson’s 2/14 Tarot：幻覺
領悟了這樣一段話
“曾經以為人生是一條路走到底
忽略了生命中處處充滿變數
現在知道了以前的認為是幻覺
其實，人生的變化才是必修課”
Having grasped the essence of this passage:
“I once thought life was a straight path to the end,
Ignoring the myriad variables that fill life.
Now I realize that my previous belief was delusion,
Actually, the changes in life are the required courses
再怎麼內心強大
也經不起一再衝撞打擊
支離破碎的心
從現實的疼痛體認到這些變數造成的深遠影響
No matter how I has a strong inner self,
It cannot withstand repeated collisions and blows.
From the reality of pain to the profound impact of these variables
“變化”這詞總讓人害怕
怕還沒迎來生命的轉折
已先被因為”變化”引起的海嘯給滅頂，再無喘息呼吸的空間
The word "change" always instills fear, fearing that before the turning point in life arrives, one is already overwhelmed by the tsunami caused by "change," with no breathing space left.
在密閉空間裡
水一直上升 … 上升 … 上升 …
原來，這種時候逃生的技能不在於游泳技術
而是，憋氣
能夠憋住氣，才有機會往下找生機
能夠憋住氣，才能抓到活下去瞬間
In a confined space, the water keeps rising... rising... rising...
Apparently, the skill to survive at such times lies not in swimming technique but in holding one's breath.
Only by holding one's breath is there a chance to find vitality below.
Only by holding one's breath can one seize the moment to survive.
我
就是常在這點上吃大虧 ~ 憋不住氣
老是經歷斷尾求生的痛
加上腦袋不長記性
陷入復始惡性循環中
直到
憋起最後一口氣
奮力一砸
將自己搞得傷痕累累也要掙脫無止盡的圈
I have often suffered greatly at this point - unable to hold my breath.
Always experiencing the pain of survival at any cost, coupled with a poor memory, falling into a vicious cycle of starting over until I hold my breath for the last time, exert all my strength, and free myself from the endless cycle despite the scars.
痛
太痛了
都已過去一年多
傷口仍張牙裂嘴流著血水
The pain is too much, more than a year has passed, yet the wounds still bleed profusely.
最近有工作機會找上門
還要再跳回鍋裡繼續煎熬嗎？
戒慎恐懼呀！
Recently, a job opportunity has come knocking.
Should I jump back into the fire and continue to suffer?
Exercise caution and fear!
我，還是惜命比較要緊
For me, cherishing life is more important.
