最近我低落，0209我的塔羅牌是負面性
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除夕日
我自己的塔羅牌是負面性
還真是符合我心中的情緒
這幾天，自己的塔羅牌大多是負面的、消極的
加上自己腦裡的思緒是紊亂
雖不至於不知所措
但無從思考倒是真實的狀態
可能是因為農曆春節
這是團圓日
而我們孩子們與爸媽陰陽兩隔
只能在夢中相見
還好
還有夢
夢裡的爸媽溫柔笑著
媽媽說她想跟爸爸一起去看電影
爸爸喜歡看電影
婚前的爸媽曾經一起看過一次電影
這回憶以前老爸很常提
我趕緊找尋適合的電影片
媽媽又說，別麻煩了，她跟爸爸在家裡看影片也是一樣的
然後媽媽問，知道哪裡有在教瑜珈嗎？
她知道的那位鄰居已經沒有在教學了
我跟媽媽說老家附近大樓有人在教喔
夢醒了
我卻停留在爸媽的跟前
像以前那樣話家常
討厭清醒
討厭的夢醒時分
New Year's Eve
My own tarot cards are negative It really resonates with the emotions in my heart.
These days, most of my tarot cards are negative and pessimistic, coupled with the chaos in my mind.
Although not completely lost, being unable to think is indeed the reality.
Perhaps it's because of the Lunar New Year, this is a day for family reunion.
But I with my brothers and parents are separated by life and death, only able to meet in dreams.
Fortunately, there are still dreams.
In the dream, my parents smile gently.
Mom says she wants to go see a movie with dad.
Dad likes watching movies.
Before they got married, my parents watched a movie together once.
This memory is something dad often brings up.
I quickly search for a suitable movie.
Mom says, don't bother, watching movies at home with dad is just as good.
Then mom asks, do you know where they teach yoga?
The neighbor she knew no longer teaches.
I tell mom that there are people teaching nearby in our hometown.
The dream ends,
But I linger in front of my parents talking as we used to.
Hate waking up.
Hate this moment of waking from a dream.
