Alyson’s 5/02 Tarot：狹隘 Narrowness (34-57)
Alyson’s 5/02 Tarot：狹隘 Narrowness (34-57)
問題：我5/01的未來日記主題
抽牌：狹隘 Narrowness
今日的我在與朋友歡笑遊玩中察覺到自己窄小的眼界。
平時課堂上已是學習跟不上，今日的談笑中，發現思緒也跟不上朋友們。
到底是過去太消耗？還是現在太平淡？
確實原因如何，不知道，也不必花費心思了解，從現在起，將身體元氣補起來才是唯一之道。
以前忙著工作，能與人交談的內容很乏味。
現在忙著學習，能與人交談的內容很侷限。
之前忙著發呆，能與人交談的內容很無味。
說穿了，是自己的問題，而非忙碌與否。
看來，我是個”挑食”的孩子，只吃喜歡吃的，只聽喜歡聽到的，只看喜歡看到的，只記得想記得的。
不想關心的，不上心。
不想理解的，不入腦。
我的思緒既單純又直接，既單一又狹隘。
怎麼辦？
怎麼辦？
怎麼辦？
Alyson's 5/02 Tarot: Narrowness (34-57)
Question: Theme of my journal on 5/01
Card Drawn: Narrowness
Today, amidst laughter and play with friends, I became aware of my narrow perspective.
Normally struggling to keep up in class, today's banter revealed my thoughts lagging behind my friends'.
Is it the past draining me, or is the present too mundane?
The exact reason eludes me, and there's no need to dwell on it.
From now on, replenishing my physical and mental energy is the only way forward.
Before, consumed by work, my conversations were bland.
Now, engrossed in learning, my conversational topics are limited.
Previously lost in reverie, my discussions were tasteless.
It's my issue, not just a matter of busyness.
It seems I'm a "picky" child, only indulging in what I like, only listening to what I want to hear, only seeing what I want to see, only remembering what I want to remember.
What I don't want to care about, I ignore.
What I don't want to understand, I dismiss.
My thoughts are both simple and direct, yet singular and narrow.
Much like the "Narrowness" Tarot card,
pillars descending from the ceiling, each a different color and thickness.
accumulation of various knowledge and experiences in my mind, each with its own
value.
pillars, they stand separate, lacking connection or continuity.
- nine distinct crystals, nine different functions, yet the mind is closed off,
compartmentalized, with many doors and rooms but isolated and disjointed.
thoughts, constrained by fences, fixed, unchanging, and narrow.
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
are limited, I'll narrow my mental scope, focus, concentrate—it's the only
weapon I have now.
concentration, I'll apply myself even more to what I'm working on, practicing
and learning diligently.
remain clear and receptive.
will gradually expand, expand, and expand further.
